it started with a... (marcus rashford)

part 38 🦋

I woke up at 5am with texts from like 20 people.

Jesse😈: did you sleep w/ aj
harriet I need to talk
it's important
Me: call me in 30

Jordan P 💘: we need to talk babe x
Me: I'll come round 10am x
Jordan P 💘: perfect sys x

Marcus: harriet
please forgive me
Wake up
I'm going insane without you
Actually get some rest you need it
I love you
Call me when you wake up? ❤️
Me: ill call you in and hour

Dave🤪: we have the premier of top boy tonight @ 8, don't forget
U can bring a plus one aswell
Me: how could I forget, see u later

Hope: are you coming tonight? X
Me: will Michael be there ? x
Hope: maybe but even if he is ill protect u and I promise nothing will happen to you
Me: I'll be there, see u later x

Gemma💰: more work has come up, meet at costa in central London at 2pm
Me: I'm in Tottenham that's a 30min drive minus traffic, can we reschedule?
Gemma💰: no this is important, be there harriet

Trent❤️: Marcell, ty and I are picking you up at 12pm and going for lunch
Me: can't wait see you all soon 💘

***

I sat up and let out a loud sigh
"Fuck" I whispered to myself
"You ok babes?" AJ asked rolling over
"Yeah I'm fine just have a stressful day ahead" I sighed looking down at him
"Everything will be ok" he said sitting up
"Can I kiss you?" He asked me
"I'm not gonna stop you" I smiled
And with that he placed a soft hand on my cheek and our lips connected
My phone began to ring

Jesse😈 is calling...

"I'm so sorry I have to get this" I smiled sadly and got out of bed

Me: hello
Jesse: where are you
Me: I'm at AJ's, why?
Jesse: I need you
Me: Jesse I hate morning sex you know this
Jesse: not sex I need help and advice
Me: I'll be at yours in 40mins
Jesse: can you come quicker
Me: I'm in Tottenham it's physically impossible

I walked back into AJ's room and sat beside him, he slithered his strong arms around my waist and pulled me back into bed with him, he connected our lips and I pulled away after a while but he pulled me back
"I have to go" I said in between kisses
"Not yet" he said flipping me over and hovering above me
"My friend needs me, i have to go" I sighed and squirmed out of his grip
"Sorry, I'll see you later yeah?" He smiled
"Text me times" I said picking up my bag and leaving

I arrived at jesses and he was lying on his couch crying into a pillow
"Jess" I whispered
He jumped up and fell into my arms sobbing uncontrollably
"Shh shh shh it's ok, tell me what happened" I said rubbing his back
He tried to speak but his sobs drowned out all the words
"Jess please calm down I can't understand what your saying" I said looking at him
He calmed him self down
"I fucked up" he started
"I got her pregnant" he said and punching the wall repeatedly
I grabbed his hands
"Stop" I shouted
He collapsed into my arms
"I'm such an idiot" he cried
"Jess don't say that" I sighed
"What happened to the advice you used to give us at the World Cup, Harriet why can't we be back there" he sobbed
"Jess you really want my advice, here it is, this child will be your child and there's nothing in the world that can change that... you have to love and care for them like there the only thing you've got, I promise you that child will be the best thing that's ever happened to you if you let it happen and don't dread it" i said quickly
"You're right, this child is gonna change my life" He sniffled
It was quite and I was thinking, long and hard
"Jess, this has to stop" I said dwelling up
"What?" He asked
"Us being whatever we are, fuck buddies, friends with benefits, booty calls, whatever you want to call it, it has to stop" I cried
He didn't say anything he just hugged me
"I love you Harriet, I mean that, you're my best friend and you always will be" he smiled
"Thank you, i love you too but I have to go, call me if you need me" I said getting up and leaving

I dried my tears and got in my car
and drove to jordans house.

"Hi gorg" he said giving me a hug
"Heya" I smiled
"How are you Harriet" he smiled sympathetically
"Good I guess" I fake smiled back
"No harriet... you can talk to me, please tell me what's going on" he said placing a supportive hand on my arm
I broke down crying in his arms
"It's ok you can cry" he said rubbing my back
"I'm sorry" I sobbed
"There's no need to be sorry but please talk to me" he smiled
"I'm going insane, I've changed so much lately, I feel like a sket, I miss him, even though he's the reason I'm like this I miss him so much, jordz he was the only one I've ever loved and I can't stand being away from him, I cry myself to sleep every night think why I wasn't good enough" I sobbed uncontrollably
"Harriet you need to talk to him immediately" jordan smiled
"I'm going to see him today, should I forgive him?" I sniffled
"All I'm gonna say is your broken without him" he smiled sympathetically
"I love you" I said drearily
"I love you too haz" he said stroking my hair
"I've got to go" I said hugging him and standing up
"Go get ya man" he laughed
I laughed and ran to my car and called Marcus

Marcus: harriet! Hello
Me: where are you
Marcus: the house
Me: I'm on the way
...

I hung up and drove straight to the house

I walked up the house, I was shaking
"Come in" He smiled and opened the door
I walked into the house bracing myself for what's about to happen
"I'm sor" Marcus said before I cut him off
"You broke me" I said holding back my tears
"You tore me down, I cried myself to sleep every night thinking 'why wasn't I good enough for him' you broke the one promise you made that day when you gave me this ring" I cried holding up his promise ring
"You promised to never hurt me, and be by my side and love me forever, you broke all of those things and do you know what the worst part about it is?" I asked him, he was crying
"No..." he trailed off
"The worst part about it is... I still love you after all of this, why? Because I've always loved you, you were the only one for me, but I obviously wasn't the only one for you.." I sobbed
"Harriet I- you were the one for me" He sniffled
"You have a funny way of showing it" I scoffed
"I'm sorry harriet, I need you... I love you" he cried
"Why did you come back to me?" He asked
"We're only getting older, and I've been thinking about it lately, does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes, everything that you've ever dreamed of, disappearing when you wake up, but there's nothing to be afraid of, even when the night changes... it will never change me and you" I cried
(If u know that song ur an og directioner and ily)

"Do you forgive me?" Marcus asked reaching for my hand
I took a deep breath
"I mean... yeah BUT this is your last chance, if you fuck up again I'm leaving and not coming back" I sniffled
He engulfed my small body in a hug and cried and i cried with him
"I'll never let you down again" he sobbed
"I love you harriet" he smiled and caressed my cheek
He leaned in and connected our lips, it felt like firework we're flying everywhere behind us, it felt right...

(And marcus is forgiven, will he keep his promise?)