With you...

Chapter 2: Memories

Charlotte's P.O.V 

 I heave a sigh of frustration as I walk my way down the almost empty halls of my college. Class just got dismissed and honestly, I couldn't be happier. I just couldn't wait to get home and just plop down my heavy head and body on my comfortable bed. No matter how much I tried shoving it away, a feeling of uneasiness kept lurking around me the entire day. I kept feeling like I was missing out on something...something really important, but I just couldn't make out what it was. These sudden leech like thoughts only added fuel to my burning fire of stress of being a college student and the studies. A few minutes later with lots and lots of thoughts still swarming in my mind, I step out of the building. A soft, autumn breeze hits my face, painting a faint smile on my face, relaxing my blooming mind for a while. I began walking my way home as sounds of dry, shades of crimson red and orange leaves crunch underneath my every step. As I keep walking I momentarily take out my phone from the pocket of my bag. I unlock the screen thoughtlessly. 

17th October 2019 it said.. 

 17th October... 

 My thoughts began racing once again, trying to figure themselves out. Was it my mom's birthday? Dad's birthday? My sister's birthday? Was it any kind of special occasion I was forgetting? What in the entire world was it that I couldn't wrap my head around!? I kept feeling further frustrated and anxious as I ponder very hard. I began walking even faster out of annoyance. And then I just abruptly stop. I stand motionless as my pupils dilate in realization; the corner of my eyes pooling themselves with tears as I realize what today meant for me...

 Harvey Carson... 

Today marks the day, five years ago, when Harvey, my childhood sweetheart, finally asked me out...

I feel unresponsive to myself for quite sometime as I slowly start walking again; my thoughts apparently couldn't stop roaming around my head either. Every scene, every second of that day remained intact in my mind and soul. Eventually, everything began coming back to me. The feeling of nervousness, the feeling when Harvey sought out and gave me a beautifully bloomed red rose for me, the feeling when I felt complete on that very day during October. All of these eased my heart, eased my soul and the rushing storm in my head. Without realizing, a wide grin appeared on my face and I felt every tension ooze away with the blowing wind. I knew I couldn't keep Harvey to myself forever back then, but I always had him locked away in my heart for all these years...I could never really move on from him.

I reach the doorstep of my home and I reach out for the door knob and twist it, opening the door. I get in, shut the door and lean my back against it as keep contemplating on whether I should text Harvey or not. 

''No, I shouldn't text...He has moved on...why would anyone wait for entire 5 fucking years for a girl like me...?I was the one who left us broken no matter whatever the reason was...'', A voice spoke in my head. 

''Yes, I should text, perhaps he has been waiting for me text when the time felt right to me...Maybe he didn't want us to rush and repeat the mistakes both of us made back then...'', another voice spoke.

''STOP'', I mentally scream to myself, putting a halt to those whispers in my head. I try and exhale all my frustration and anxiety away. I pull up my phone to my face as I open my long lost chats with Harvey Carson. I was the one who sent the last text 5 years ago and it only read ''Bye''

Slowly, I couldn't help but read all of our older texts. All the hearts, kisses, all the 'I love you's...Reading every text just made me miss him more and more and I began feeling compelled to go around the world and search for him right then. So that he could take me in his arms again, so that I could feel like I finally have a purpose and a place where I could hide away in from all of the world's dread and stress pouring on me. A sudden, short 'ting' interrupted me from my 

from my deep thinking, making me jump slightly. The tears I have holding back for so long finally let themselves roll down my cheeks. It was a notification which appeared on my phone screen. It took me a second to focus my vision which was blurred by uncontrollable, silent tears. But once I could focus, it felt like all the air sucked out of my lungs. 

I couldn't breathe, I couldn't move, I couldn't comprehend anything....

Harvey Carson sent you a text message ''Hey''