Every Scar Doesn't Heal .:Depressed Midoriya:.

.:Chapter 20:.

Eee I'm back with another story because I was board so I dicided to write instead of study XD anyways enjoy!!

Starting Date: 12/18/19

Midoriya's Pov *before Bakugou enters his room*

After I went into my room I decided to change and take a shower. I grabbed a Christmas green long sleeved shirt and navy blue skinny jeans along with boxers. I went into my bathroom and placed my clothes on the counter top, I walked over to the shower and turned it on to the right temperature. I then started to take my blazer off since I was still in my school's uniform. I saw the cuts I made on me and some faded scars that barely show. I know where they are truly from, I took my schools shirt off and took the rest of my clothes off. I stepped into the warm soothing shower and felt the warm water run from my head to my shoulders. I grabbed the soap and a rag and placed some soap on the rag. I started to wash myself while the memories of what my father did to me flashed into my mind. The way he used me, looked at me, the words he said that sounded like every amount of hatred bottled up just suddenly bursted. I didn't realise I was scrubbing hard till I accidentally scrubbed open an old cut. I winced as the soap got in the cut and started the rub it away, a but of water and blood mixed together and fell onto the snowy white flooring below me. I know that it's bad to do it again, but I don't want to burden anyone again. I should atleast set another date to die, make sure that it's when everyone is busy the most and can't find me. I smiled to myself knowing I can relases myself from all this pain. I washed and rinsed my hair then stepped out of my shower. I took my towel and dryed myself off, I then scrubbed my hair trying to get it atleast decently dry. I grabbed my clothes and put them on, I wrapped the towel around my neck and grabbed my blow dryer. I turned it on the medium setting and pointed it at my head and started to brush my hair down. Once it was to a certain point I turned my dryer off and shook my head to fluff my hair up. I looked in the mirror and stared at my reflection as all the taunting words came back to haunt me.
'Fat'
'Useless'
'Faggot'
'Whore'
'No one loves you'
'You're just a play toy'
'Take a swan dive off the roof and wish for a quirk in your next life'
'Oh Izu~'

The voices were cut off by a knock on the door. I didn't realize I was crying till I felt something wet drip on my hand, I wiped my face off with my sleeve and walked up to the door and cracked it open to see Kacchan. I stared into his lovly crimson eyes while he stared into mine. "Hey there Izu, just want to see if you want ta join me in movie night tonight?", he asked me, I opened my door up more to let him fully inside. He walks in and walks over to my bed and I do the same. 'I want to tell him everything, but I don't think I can. What do I do.. *sigh* I know my choice', I thought and hugged Kacchan. I can tell I caught him off guard with this," oi Izu, is somethin' wrong?", he asked while he wrapped one arm around me. I cringed at Izu, not from him saying it. From them saying it.. I started to feel my stomach turn thinking over my decisions. I still up from the hug and brought my legs up to my chest and hug them. "Kacchan, it's about time I told you everything...", I said while Kacchan just looks at me with more curiosity then anything else. I sighed and looked to the side," I-I don't know how to say this but uh...", I said rubbing my neck. "What? Wait.. do you not love me anymore?", he asked with his voice breaking, I snapped my head to him," no no no! It's not like that! I feel like you would leave me for what I'm about to say..", I said trying so hard not to cry but I can feel the tears swell in my eyes. I took a deep breath as you can hear it shaking slightly. "I want to tell you w-why I'm like.. this", I said throwing out my arms. Kacchan puts an arm around my waist and brings me to his side," I'm sure that whatever you will say won't make me look at you any different. I love you for who you are, not what they say", he said while pointing to my head when he said the last part. I took a deep breath again and sat there in Kacchan's embrace. "Well.. when I w-was younger m-y dad wasn't the kindest man.. he changed after he fo-und out the truth. He wo-ould wait till m-om left home to abuse me... when I was 11 he..", I started to cry reliving my first time over and over again," shhh.. it's ok Izu", he said and I flinched at the word. "He.. h-he.. HE RAPED ME AND I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING! I WAS SO USE-LESS AND W-WEAK AND I COULDN'T STOP HIM! He a-a-asked me if I wanted to play a game because he knew I was board. I ran, I got beat, I talked to loudly, I got beat, wa-tched tv, I got beat... I would tell mom that it was from me playing to much at the park but then.. he would burn me.. left me th-ere to clean my own mess, if I even cried to loudly the puish-ment would get wo-worse.. I only stayed h-happy for her.. When I was 1-13 my fat-her broug-ht his friend over who was drunk and... he did the same thing my fa-ther did... God I felt ashamed and disgusting... calling me Izu in that disgusting voice... calling me his toy.. his slut.. I thought if I told yo-u that you would leave me like eve-ryone else... mom fou-nd out the truth after she found my di-iary and read about Wh-What my fat-her did... that's why he-s no lon-ger around. Eve-entually... mom died, I blamed myself for it.. I couldn't save her and I tho-ught.. if I can't save her... then there's no point in being a hero any-more..", I said while my tears flowed down my eyes and shaking to the point to where it looks like I'm in a earthquake. Kacchan sat there quiet and I was waiting for him to blow up so I didn't look at him. His grip tightened and I flinched and looked away, he still said nothing. At this point my heart broke,' he's going to leave me.. I should've kept my mouth shut.. he's going to tell everyone... heh.. guess I really am worthless... useless... waste of space..", I said the last part out loud and didn't realize I was crying hard till I felt my hiccup. I pushed Kacchan away and ran into my bathroom. I slammed my door shut and heard Kacchan banging on the door. "I know what you want to do! Please.. I'm sorry for bringing any of this up! Just please don't tell anyone! Hurt me all you want, just...", I slid down the door. "Please don't tell anyone", I cried and started to hyperventilate. I felt arms wrap around me in a relaxing manner. "I'm not leaving you, hell I'm not even going to hurt you because it will hurt me.. that sick fuck isn't your father so don't call him that.. he has no right because of what he did to you. As for Auntie... you didn't cause her death.. if you back out of being a hero image how she would feel.. you became a hero for her. She was your main reason and she didn't die because of you.. whoever told you that is just messed up in the head and if you told yourself that then stop believing it.. because it's not true, I'll stop using that nickname if you don't like it", he said finishing off while holding me in his lap, I shook my head. "N-No... I like it when you say it..", I said while feeling my face flush. I heard a soft chuckle, Kacchan pulls my head back and makes me stare into his eyes. "I love you Izu, and nothing can change that", he says and I felt my heart skip a beat when he said that. My face became warmer and I gave a small smile," I love you too, Kacchan", I said while he brought my face to his and closed the gap between us. The kiss became more passionate, I wrapped my arms around his neck as he wrapped his arms around my waist. He licked my bottom lip for entrance and I happily let him, he explored around my mouth marking every inch he can get to. We pulled away as there was a knock on the door, Kacchan lifted me up and placed me on the sink. He grabbed a ragged and rinsed it under water, Kacchan brought it up to my face and wiped the dried tears off mine and his face. He then places it down and turns off my bathroom light, we walk over to my door and open it to see Kiri and Denki. "Yo bros! Ready for movie night?", Denki asked while looking between us with a smug face. I looked up to Kacchan and smiled," yeah!", I said and turned around to grab two pillows and a soft blanket for the both of us. I walked back to the door, Kacchan grabbed a pillow and the blanket and we walked out of my dorm. All four of us then headed downstairs into the common area and saw everyone gathered around. I saw that a chair was open and the chair can easily fit both Kacchan and I. Kacchan saw my eyes and smirk, we both walked over there as he placed a pillow down on the back of the chair as he sat down, he then pulled me down onto my lap and hugged me to where I was in his chest. He placed the pillow behind my back and placed the blanket over us *like this, Backugou is sitting in the chair with a pillow behind his back, Deku is on is lap basically like bridal style but without Bakugou's hands under his legs and behind his back. The second pillow is behind Deku's back and the blanket over them*. I heard all the girls squeal and saw phones pointed at us, I squeak and hid my head under the blanket. "Aww! Come on Deku! Just one?", Ura asked. I slowly peeked my head over the blankets," o-only one phone", I said and everyone put their phones away besides Ura. I just hugged Kacchan and Ura took her picture," this is embarrassing..", I whispered which Kacchan heard. He chuckles at me," not really", he says while he hugs me back. "That's because you have bo shame!", I yelled at him and this caused him to laugh," yes I do", he says and leans to my ear," and that's not being able to hear you say my name with that cute little voice of yours in bed yet", Kacchan says and leans back up smirking. I can feel a whole bunch of warmth rise to my face as my eyes were wide open. "So what's his shame Midodude?", Kiri asked and I quickly snapped my head to him. "I-I-IT'S NOTHING!!", I squeaked out and everyone just laughed. I put my face in my hands while still blushing," awe don't hide your face Izu~ I wanna see it", says Kacchan. I grabbed the pillow behind me and smacked him with it," Stahp it Kacchan!", I said with iminse blush on my face. Kacchan then had a smirk on his face," oh gosh, uh.. sorry?", I said it as more of a question. I felt him move slightly and I jumped off," no wait I'm sorry!" I said while running from him," you will be sorry in a minute Izu", he said as I saw a pillow in his hand. "Pillow fight!", Mina yelled as Kacchan ran towards me," Izu is my target, don't get in our way!", Kacchan yelled while jumping towards me with the pillow swinging. I then jumped over his head while placing my two hands on his back and did a backflip off of it. "Nooo!", I said and ran while picking up my pillow. Kacchan was shocked for a minute but then turned while smirking," you should really use the flexibility for soemthin' else Izu~", Kacchan said and I blushed hard. "I will lock you out of my room if you don't stop!", I yelled out and some of the other laughed and others tried not to. "Backugou that is unacceptable behavior, as class representative I can't have you saying th-", Iida was cut off by Ura smaking him in the face with a pillow. "Let them have their fun!", she yelled and everyone laughed. Iida just stayed on the ground with Ura's pillow on his face. "Guess I'll stay down here then", he says and I laughed but just when I looked back up to where Kacchan was he wasn't there anymore. "Kacchan?", I said while I looked around, just then arms wrap around my waist. "Gotcha Izu~", and this made me freak out I turned and shoved the person making them fall on the ground. I then realized who it was," o-oh.. sorry Kacchan!", I said with my voice shaking and offered him a hand. He took it and stood up," nah it's ok, it's my fault really. I just realized what I did and what ya told me earlier", he says and this got others looking questionably at me," what happened earlier?", asked a worried yet confused Iida. I just waved him off," i-it's nothing Iida, let's just start watching some movies", I said as both Kacchan and I headed over to the chair we were sitting on. Everyone nodded and got comfortable again, I sat back down on Kacchan and huddled myself into his chest, he wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me closer. We were watching a movie called Avatar*bro this movie is so good T0T* and I am liking it so far.