bryce x tayler 🤍:)

☽ chapter 1 ☾

Just saying, this chapter contains a part with self harm. I will tell you when it's coming up, but read at your own risk. Sorry I'm depressing:(

Bryce's p.o.v.
I was laying on the couch scrolling through my TikTok when I see Tayler walk into the room shirtless. 'Why is he so fucking fine! Shit I can't be thinking like that! HE'S YOUR BEST FRIEND!'. "Hey, you wanna make a TikTok?" Tayler asks me and I snap out of my trance.  "Yeah sure!" I smile.
I chose Falling as the song. And tell him I'm going to go in for a kiss, not fully of course. Since that's what the fans drool over... 'maybe that's not the whole reason but whatever!'
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I sit down and press the button to start. It starts to count down from 3, I didn't really know what to do so I just looked up and down and around the room. Kind of like I was nervous. I mean his hotness kind of made me nervous. As he turns his face towards me, I grab his face and go in for the kiss. He swiftly pulls away and I do the same. I can't help but smile because I was so close to feeling his lips on mine. 'Oh my god I'm doing it again! Tayler is your friend Bryce, NOTHING MORE!!!!'
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"Damn that was really close" Tayler says as he chuckles. "Yeah, I wish I could've kissed you-" I stop realizing I just said that. My mind has failed me yet again. "Wait wha-" "HEY YALL" Griffin yells, cutting of Tayler's sentence. I look at him with teary eyes and then look back at Tayler realizing that he started to walk out the door. I just let him go. I was too scared of what he thought now. I collapsed on the floor and started to cry. He probably can't stand me anymore. "Hey it's okay. What happened?" Griffin holds me as I start to cry. "I ruined me and Taylers relationship. I told him that I wished I had kissed him instead of stopping. I didn't mean too!" I cry harder. "Bryce stop crying! It's going to be okay, he won't think differently of you!" Griffin wipes my tears off of my face. "Fuckkkkk, I really like him. I'm gay. I like guys..." "Okay, that's cool. It's not a bad thing." Griffin continues to comfort me. A few minutes later I finally get off of the floor and go to my room, saying goodnight to Griffin.
I really can't believe that all of this happened today. I came out to Griffin and kind of Tayler. I can't stop thinking about what I did. I stare at the ceiling just thinking, and torturing myself with what could happen. After a long time I finally fall asleep.
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"You're so fucking disgusting! Don't ever come near me again!" Tayler screams at me. I try to say something but no words come out. The only thing that comes out are tears. "Guys look he's crying. What a crybaby!" He calls all the guys in to make fun of me. They all start to laugh with him. I collapsed on the floor. I curl up in a ball and start rocking myself as I cry. They all yell "CRYBABY!!!"  They start kicking me, it just gets worse and never stops. I started to couch up blood, I could even feel the bruises form on my body. I was crying so hard that I couldn't anymore. All I saw was Tayler looking at me. Not coming to help me, just standing there. Watching me get beat up but my so called friends. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't find the air to take in. It's like it just disappeared. Maybe it's because I don't deserve air, I'm really that disgusting. Everything hurts. It all hurts. I wish I was dead.
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¡¡WARNING!!
This part contains self harm, read at risk!!
I wake up and realize it was only just a dream. Still I can't help but cry because that's probably what he thinks of me now. They're all going to beat me up now, maybe throw me in the streets to die. I stare at the ceiling. 'You're nasty Bryce' 'No one could ever love you' 'Tayler hates you now' 'You ruined everything' 'You're a worthless piece of trash' All these thoughts race through my head. I just want it all so stop. I want the pain to go away. I get up and slowly walk towards my bathroom. I cry harder as I walk into the bathroom. I grab my razor and lay against the bathtub. I cut and I cut and I cut. Blood falls on the floor. I just sit there sobbing because I will never be good enough for anyone.
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Taylor's p.o.v.
I feel bad for walking out that door, but I was just so confused. I had so many questions but I didn't know where to start. Did Bryce really mean that? I don't know how to react if he did mean it. All this thinking made me thirsty. ((Thirsty for Bryce ;) sorry I had to)) I got out of my bed, and put a blue hoodie on :) I walk past Bryce's room and stop. I hear someone crying? I turn the knob and walk in. The room is pitch black except for the light in the bathroom. I walk towards the light. I stop in shock when I see Bryce laying in a pool of blood. "Bryce oh my god!" I take the razor away and rummage around for the bandages. He flinched as I take his arm and clean it up before I put the bandages on. Then I clean up the floor with a towel. I notice he got some blood on his pink hoodie. I take off my hoodie and put it on him. Then I place his arms around my neck and lift him up. He crys against my neck, I just pull him closer to my body trying to comfort him. I take us to my room not wanting him to be alone now. I place him down on my bed. "I-I-I'm s-s-sor-r-ry" I sit down next to him. I pull him into me and rest my head on top of his. "It's okay, just promise you won't do that to yourself again." "I-I-I-I p-promi-i-ise" he trembles against me. "Can you tell me why you did it?" I ask him cautiously. He just shakes his head. "C-can I t-tell you in t-t-the m-m-m-morning? I w-want to s-s-sleep" I wipe the tears off his face. "Of course baby" I roll to the other side of the bed so he could lay down. I turn off the lamp and pull his body closer to mine. I wait till he's fully asleep and then fall asleep thinking of what happened.
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Aaaaa okay so that was the first chapter. I hoped you enjoyed it and that it wasn't so bad. I might add more to it after it's published. Sorry if I made any errors, Its 2 am and I've been pulling all-nighters. Probably not the best choice but whatever! Okay byeeeeeee :))