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The End Of A Decade

And most of my childhood, according to the common perception. 10 years. Thats a band. But no, its been 10 years. 10 years of just being a child. 10 years of innocence, wonder and joy with a tiny bit of sadness sprinkled on top. 10 years. It just seems like such a long time yet it seemed to have passed so quickly. I'm never gonna get these childhood years back. Life goes by so fast.

Okay thats enough existential crisism for now, lets talk about this decade. So many things have happened, both good and bad, personal and in the world, in these 10 years. I was, and still am, much too young to really understand the depth of the things that happened in the world so I'm just gonna talk about my personal experiences, mainly memories. Memories are the only thing we have of the past, and they are the closest we can get to reliving the past. I am really fortunate to have made a lot of good memories, even if I admittedly might not always remember those memories. These memories randomly come to you at times and just take you away. These, in my opinion, are the best kind of memories. Thats why im gonna list some of my most random memories from each year of this decade.

DISCLAIMER: Me, as well as my entire family is a bit confused over the timeline so just take my word for it, yeah?

2010: The start of the decade for which I was much too young to care. I dont remember much from this year other than leaving our old house and moving into a new one. Another thing I remember is me watching the movie 2012 which scared me so much. I walked over to where the calender was hung in our living room and just stood there thinking, "So only 2 more years to go huh?". Pretty much my first existential crisis.

2011: 2011! We moved into a new house! I got admitted to a new school in 1st grade after I was homeschooled for a year! It sucked so much and I hated school ever since! I remember me playing games on my computer next to my dad when he handed me his phone to answer a call from my mom. She told me that I was admitted to a new school and that i couldnt sit home all day anymore. My dad heard this and started laughing. I was so distraught I immediately broke into tears and threathened to drop my dads phone. Also when I got my first crush!

2012: Me sitting on my balcony on 12/12/12, patiently waiting for the world to end. It didnt. It was the most boring day ever.

2013: 3rd grade! It would be my last grade in my old school and I would come to miss it so much. Random memory would be me standing beside my friend in school after the bell had rung and talking. He was convinced that there were snakes in the mountain next to our school, and was telling me why. Then together we looked through the holes in the wall next to the mountain for snakes. Also going to the hospital on a rainy day in a taxi to meet my new baby brother!

2014: Oof 2014 was a rough year. New school, new disasters, there was no end of bad things. Bangladesh pretty much lost every match ever, I got hit in the head with a football, my grandfather got sick so we had to stay at their house for a few days, then my mom got sick and had to go to Dhaka so we had to stay at our grandfather's house again for a few days, pretty much a bad year. Their backyard and frontyard both becoming fully submerged during the rainy season and being scared that the house would flood too would be my random memory.

2015: Our grandparents decided to leave their house and come live with us. Me walking around our grandfather's home one last time. It was a second home for me, it was really hard to leave it behind. Giving the first national exam of my life and jumping and fistpumping the air when it ended and when I got the results. Watching Bangladesh's match on someone else's tv through a window while playing cricket with my friends.
Having a mini existential crisis on Back To The Future day.

2016: 6th grade! Me crying when I got separated from my friends in school due to a stupid section system and then literally trying my best to get a section transfer and succeeding! Some cousins from Canada visiting and playing football with them with my friends and having a blast. Meeting my now best friend and sitting next to him every day.

2017: 7th grade and I got separated from my friends again. I couldn't get a section transfer this time so I was pretty miserable the whole year. I cant really remember another random memory from this year cause apparently it sucked too much. Well, okay, everyone becoming crazy over fidget spinners and bottleflips in our school would be my random memory. Playing cricket with my friends indoors when there was a crazy storm outside, as well as just after a hurricane had passed over Bangladesh, with the smell of wet leaves in the air.

2018: Ooh, 8th grade was an interesting year. This was the time when I really just started pushing my boundaries and saying yes to stuff more. I did every dare I was given and made new friends, including Tahia_colour, one of my best readers and friend. Going up and hanging out on the roofs of my friends' houses. Giving the 2nd national exam of my life and hanging out with my friends after. Then crying when the results came out because i did so well but it didnt matter cause i did slightly bad on one subject.

2019: Ah this year. What an year it has been. It pretty much has been the highest of highs and the lowest of lows for the whole year except December. I continued with the mentality of 2018 and pushed even more boundaries. I participated in more activies, learned new skills, met new people, managed friendships, found love and got my heartbroken, found love again - all the while keeping myself focused on studies and redeeming myself from 2018. And what do you know? After a year of hardship and joy, I am happy to say I have succeeded. I got great grades and got my teacher to ask herself what happened last year that I did so bad compared to this year and I honestly think I am the happiest I can be.

With all that has happened, in this year and this decade, I am satisfied. Given the chance I would change a few things here and there but as a whole, I couldn't ask for more. I have no doubt I will feel nostalgic over this time period one day and wish to return to this time. However, I am also excited for the future and the new decade because as I said earlier, I think I am the happiest I can be. I eagerly wait to see what tomorrow brings and I wish to welcome the new with a smile on my lips. Happy New Year everyone!

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The moment when you have the same idea as your favorite author but you came up with it first. I didnt know whether I should be proud or scared or zealous.