Death is Inevitable (Higgs Monaghan X F! Reader) [UNDER EDITING]

Part 12: Helping Heartman

~the next day~

[Name]'s POV

My eyes snap open, and I sit up quickly to find myself in a private room. "[Name]!" Fragile gasps, and I look over as she jogs over and hugs me.

"Hey, Fragile," I say with a small smile before looking around. "Where am I, and how did I get here?"

"You're in your private room at Mountain Knot, and I brought you here. Deadman called me and asked me to bring you here since you were out cold- you have been for a day. Sam and BB were too," she explains before letting me go. "How did you survive out in the snow for an entire night?"

I sigh before removing my cuff link, gesturing Fragile to follow me. She sends me a curious look as we leave my private room and take the elevator up to the main floor, leaving the distro center so Bridges can't listen in.

"[Name]?" Fragile questions, and I sigh.

"Higgs saved me," I admit, causing her eyes to widen.

"What? He saved you?!"

"I sure as hell didn't expect it all. I woke up to him carrying me, and he had me rest in some shelter. He didn't even push me to try and join him," I explain, leaving out some significant things that happened between him and me.

"What was his goal? That bastard always has a purpose for doing what he does."

"I don't know. I thought Higgs would use it against me and say I owe him, but he didn't do that. He just had me rest..." I whisper while looking down.

"[Name]... look at me," Fragile states, and I meet her gaze. "Did something happen between you two recently? Please, be honest with me."

I chew on my bottom lip nervously before looking away with guilt. "I'm sorry, Fragile... I've done the worst thing I could possibly do."

"What happened?"

"I've told you about him trying to get me to join his side, and he still does that, but it's gone further. He's seductive and flirtatious, and one thing led to another, and I kissed him... despite the fact that earlier that day, I threw the nuke of his into a tar pit," I tell her quietly, keeping my head bowed in shame.

"Why would you do that?" she breathes out while staring at me in shock. "After everything he's done-"

"Fragile, my head is everywhere and nowhere at once. Part of me absolutely hates him, and part of me is drawn towards him. I didn't intend for any of this to ever happen, but it did, and I don't blame you if you hate me for it. He's terrorized you for years, and I go and make out with him. I'm a terrible friend, Fragile. I've betrayed you and all of Bridges... even after you warned me about him."

I look out at the land around me while Fragile slowly joins my side, her eyes looking out at what I'm staring at. "I won't say I'm not hurt or disappointed, and I do feel a bit betrayed," she admits before turning her head and looking at me. "But I don't hate you, [Name]."

"You should," I state, avoiding her stare. "The kiss... it wasn't just a one-time thing. I...I had sex with him, Fragile."

"Do you regret it?"

I close my eyes and sigh. "I don't. I want myself to regret it and to wish it never happened, but I can't. It was something I wanted... Higgs didn't push it on me. It was a choice I willingly made, and I would do it again."

"He never once tried to get you to join him when you hooked up with him?"

"No. I actually told him a few days before he saved me that he should stop coming to me if he was going to ask me to join. Said I wasn't going to change my answer, and that I was done with it all. That night he saved me... he gave me dry clothes and had me rest with a pillow and blanket in front of a fire. He held me that entire night, and in the morning, we had sex. The only time the conversation turned to me joining him was when I said I thought he would want me to join him as payment for saving me."