Pain
Numb
What other feeling that can describe my emotion right now
Regret
Hopeless
Useless
The whispers keep coming back like a soft lullaby. Enticing me to keep me inside the darkness, to be afraid of the light.
Who am I
Where am I
What am I
Still, these thoughts keep me company, before I lose my mind and fall apart.
I should have not be here
I do not belong here
Why do my tears keep coming to these baseless statement. I had enough. This suffering, a continuous limbo, perhaps my punishment but at least give back my memories of the happy days before.
Yet, I am too afraid to hold on. As if the memories were never mine to begin with. A sin to have and another to turn back against.
Wishing that I could separate myself to let my other half that pine to hope lives on. So that, this suffering can have its ending, the ultimate ending.
However, I had to wake up. Again with this nightmare. I can never be enough for myself and in that statement I will never be enough for anyone.
