school days

should i stop this?

Mew couldn't get back to sleep after the boy left.
Thoughts swirled in his head.
He wanted the boy to have stayed and not for sex.
He groaned. Mew shouldn't have wanted that.
Staring at the ceiling he started to think in a different way.
Why am i fighting this so hard? The boy obviously wanted him even though he didn't know why.
The boy was over 18. He also felt amazing.
Even if they got caught there's not much the school could do. He might lose his job but he also might not.
The big thing that held him back was the age difference but it wasent to much.
Should he let go? Should he let this Happen?
Then a memory from his past relationship flashed through his mind.
"I just wanted to see how a guy felt. Your an idiot to fall for me."
Mew closed his eyes when his ex words stung his heart.
Putting his hand to the bridge of his nose he squeezed his eyes tighter shut.
Is this the same thing? Is gulf just curious?
Shifting to his side he kept his eyes closed. Could his heart handle this?
Gulf went home to submerge himself in the bath tub groaning.
Leaning his head to the side he gritted his teeth.
He didn't want to leave but he couldn't have sex with him again.his lower back was in pain.
Gulf loved the second time, it felt more passionate more surreal, less then a dream. Everything felt so incredible, maybe if there is a next time maybe no condom.
Thinking he didn't know what to do and what would Happen Monday?
He knew mew was left with his thoughts.
Was he regretting it? Did he miss him? Would he come back Monday? Is he going to leave?
Gulf chewed his inner cheek.
After the first time he fell head over heels in love with him.
He didn't just want him in one way anymore he wanted him in everyway.
But, how does mew feel?
Was he only doing this for physical satisfaction? Did he even feel for gulf?
He sank lower into the bath tub depressed.
Viewing the top of the water he breathed in deep.
"Ill be whatever you want me to be if i can be with you."
Gulfs heart sank.
Monday came and both were nervous.
Gulf went through the day biting his lip and listened to champ drone on. Would mew be here today?
Finally it was time to.Find out.
Waving to champ he took a big breathe.
Opening the door mew was there giving him a stern look. The class had started and a few girls giggled.
Eyes darting he went to his seat a little shuffling.
He hated he had to sit in the back.
Mew looked to him.
"Next time be on time mr. Kanawut."
He nodded biting his lip.
When everyone looked forward he smiled down taking out his notebook.
The lecture went by quick then the bell rang.
"Remember i want a 600 word paper on this chapter."
All the students groaned. Gulf was the last to leave.
"Mr. Kanawut can you stay behind a bit."
He froze at his desk.
Mew watched has the last student left then closed the door. Gulf gulped.
Breathing in deep he walked to mews desk his back was to him keeping his hand on the door nob.
"Um You wanted to.."
Then he was cut off by mew placing his hands on either side of gulfs head.
Gulf kept his eyes open in surprise.
Then a smile played on his lips has they kissed.
Then gulf took out his tongue seeking entrance. Mew allowed him in.
Pushing gulf with mews body he put him to Lean him on the desk.
They breathed heavily into there kiss.
Gulf had to grip his back pack tighter.
This didn't seem real.
Soon a knock was heard.
They pulled apart, they both fixed themselves.
Opening the door another teacher looked around to see gulf looking back at her bored.
Looking to mew her eye brows raised.
Turning to gulf he spoke.
"Mr. Kanawut you can go to my car ill be there in a moment."
He nodded hurrying out the door.
She watched him go. Then she looked to mew questionally.
"His mother is paying me to tutor him til his grades are back up." He shrugged.
She nodded.
"Um the reason.why I'm here i was wondering if i could take you out this Friday?"
Mew gulped but smiled.
"Maybe next time. Between teaching and tutoring my life's pretty full. But maybe next time."
He nodded.
She gave a small smile.
Watching her go he turned around grabbing his brief case then he headed to his car.
Walking to his car his heart skipped a beat.
Gulf was leaning on the passenger side looking to him with a smile.
Mew breathed in.
If we're going to do this lets do it.
Then he walked to his driver side then he leaned over unlocking it for gulf.
He got in merrily.
Mew looked him up and down with a smirk. Then his face went cold looking forward putting his hands on the steering wheel he started the car driving to his house.
Gulf put his seat belt on watching mew. He could tell mew was still indecisive.
He breathed in.
Ill just have to change that then.
Even though it broke gulfs heart this would be just a physical relationship he could do it.
For mew id did anything for you.
Then they drove off in silence.