Farewell (LAMP/CALM) (DISCONTINUED)

Chapt 1

(Warnings: depressing shit)

Virgils P.O.V
I woke up feeling like crap I swear on my living flesh that I will probably kill someone..i mean its not actually new I've done it before, I mean tried but that's beside the point. Hello, I'm Virgil I'm a male and I'm 16 but I'm not just any male you know I'm transgender which means I was F to M which is kinda hard considering I have 3 boyfriends and they all don't know that I'm trans sooooo uh... yah anyways today I'm gonna wear something I actually thought I would never wear: a crop top. I really don't like crop tops but I didn't know what else to wear and I mean Patton wears them all the time! Oh I forgot before I continue my rant I should probably tell you my boyfriends names soooo first one is Roman: he's taller than me and Patton probably the height of 9.6 and is Thomas's creativity which I guess makes sense for him to have a name that is basically an Egypt thing or whatever, than we have Logan the smartass yeah he's Thomas's logic and I for sure know that he's taller than all of us I mean he's like 8.3 and he's just really smart I guess, than of course as you know Patton he 6.5 yeah pretty decent height if you ask me and he's Thomas's morality than last but definitely least me, I'm Thomas's anxiety yah sounds fun right? Actually it's not that bad considering I only bother Thomas to make him anxious well on the other hand I'm 5.9 yah sucks for me since I'm the youngest AND SHORTEST witch I hate obviously well..... let's just start getting ready so, I put on my binder (of course) and than put on the crop top that looks like this:

than some normal ripped black jeans which really goes with that outfit I mean I have pretty good taste if I say so myself, anyways since I'm done I'm gonna go downstairs. As I was walking down I stopped and froze, what if this gave them a hint, what if they didn't like it, what if they broke up with me, so many what if's I swear I'm super anxious right now, heh get it my name...no?.... yah I know I'm bad at comedy Romans way better. I sighed and started to continue downstairs I just really hope they don't make fun of me I mean it's showing some of my stomach but not a lot that it would show my binder, but I think the shirts still covering me up a lot so I don't think I need to worry as much (even tho that's my job) anyways.... as I was walking down I saw all them at the kitchen table in their original seats and yes they sit in the same seat every DAY I mean I don't have a problem with it I just think we could sometimes take a break and sit in different seats. I look at them than my chest I just feel like something wrong or missing I can't think of it tho I'm sure I'll remember I guess, as I walk closer towards them I notice Roman looking at me blushing a little "hey there beautiful" he said as he winked at me "oh shut it princy" I said clearly annoyed he giggled a little and smiled at me as I sat down. Logan looks up from his book and gives me a small yet soft smile "salutations Virgil" "yo broski" everyone look at me confused making me chuckle a bit "don't question me" I said with a little sas making them smile "well kiddo did you sleep well?" He asked handing the others their food than giving mine and kissing my on the head "it was fine I guess" I said with a little yawn getting a chuckle from Roman "I really don't believe you, what did you do last night?" I smirked "oh... you know the daily stuff where I question my existence" I said smiling and giggling to myself, Patton looked up and glared at me "I will physically fight you!" I laughed "I know I know that's what I'm hoping for" I said giving him a little smile as he huffed "now, now I don't think fighting will do any good especially you Virgil I don't think doubting is good for yourself, you should be happy. Cause you know we all love you" he said in a serious tone making me huff and making Patton giggle "aww logie that's so nice!" He said with a small smile. I looked down at my plate than the everyone else's they were already done and I didn't even touch mine, I sigh and notice everyone looking at me "wut?" Roman sighed "virge you didn't even touch your food, and you need to eat" he said concerned "I know but I'm not hungry right now" I said making them all sigh "alright, but at lunch you HAVE to eat" I groan "but loooooo I don't wanna" I leaned back in my chair "well you gonna" Patton said giggling making me laugh a little too then quickly closed my mouth "how dare you make me laugh!" I say pointing at Patton making him smile "well that's my job kiddo, as long as your happy I'm happy" he said cheerfully. I smiled "Also I should say," I looked at Logan confused "what's with the crop top?" He said pushing up his glasses "oh yah! I never knew you wore them! You look so cute in them! But why that one?" Pointing to my shirt "yah that seems like a logic shirt I mean it looks mature and stuff, and also bright colors" roman noted "well..um... I just wanted to try something new you know? So I just gave it a chance I mean they are comfy" I say with a relieved smile slowly feeling less anxious than before they nod as I get off my chair and head for the couch

Yo broskis first chapter of this amazing book y'all I'm also still getting the cover so no worries, plus I might change the name of it cause I feel like the title Farewell cause it sounds like it's a prinxiety book soo yahhhhhhhh bye brosss!