Farewell (LAMP/CALM) (DISCONTINUED)

Chapt 3

(Warnings: i don't fricking know I guess mentioning self harm, depressing thoughts and mentions of abuse, btw it's virgils POV)

why did I even bother to show them I mean it's useless...I'm useless, whatever and how am I supposed to tell them why!?! They know I get anxious about this stuff god, I look them in the eyes painfully and sigh "w-well I guess it all started when I met deceit I-I mean he did kinda abuse me in any way until I popped up here, but when I was with the dark sides I was always hated there and I thought they were you know, playing around since their the dark sides but it ended up getting worse they would always come into my room just to do a daily beating and it was to the point I got used to it until I found out about you guys. The light sides. I was happy there was a place for me to go but I was scared that you guys wouldn't except me, so when I popped up here for the first time I really didn't know what to expect, just way you guys looked you seemed nice but I still couldn't trust you, and after we met and stuff I was somehow teleported back to the dark side and obviously I was scared, but they did something worse. They basically made my beatings even worse till the point I cut myself, I did this for at least 3 months each week with brand new scars, b-but this was all in the past it doesn't matter anymore" I say as I sigh and look at the ground. Patton looked at the wall than me "wh..why didn't you tell us?" I looked at him sadly "I was scared of what you'll think" Logan shook his head "you know we would've helped you heal, didn't you?" I looked at him "yah but i really didn't want to tell you the story cause I know I'd make everything depressing and sad so I didn't really bother I guess..." I sighed "and...and I was young I mean I'm different now r-right?" I could tell that Roman was about to cry "wait..are you saying that your not yourself?" He said a little shocked I looked at the ground "no, well," I sigh "yes I did it so I could fit in and I got used to it which is good cause it means that I'm happy more often" "no,no kiddo, it really doesn't it makes it more difficult, and for now on I want you to be yourself if not I'll physically fight you!" I chuckled a little "I'll try pat, I'll try" they all smile. Logan looks at the clock "it's lunch time and Virgil, remember you promised to eat lunch so come down when your ready" he said leaving the room with Patton following from behind leaving me and Roman alone. I sigh and look down at my hands than at Roman "I-I'm sorry virge I really am, is their anything I can do to make you cheer up?" I thought for a second than smiled "maybe some cuddles might do the trick, and of course Disney" he looks at me with excitement "alright I'll get everything ready!" He said while running out my room, I sigh peacefully and chuckle "god I love those idiots" I say laying back on my bed forgetting what Logan had said and fell into a chamber of sleep

Time skippity skip skip uwu

I wake up and see that the others were in my room, I groaned and pulled the covers over my head "5 more minutes..." Logan sighed "I'll let you take a nap if you eat your lunch" I groan even louder "fineeeee" I say as I open up my eyes and sit up, Patton giggles and hands me my food as I sneeze "wow your food must be that powerful" I say jokingly, he giggles "yes, cause I made it with extra love!" Patton said giving me a kiss on the cheek as I smile "alright. You guys can go now" I say yawning, Logan shakes his head "nope, we'll leave when you have finished your food" his said getting closer to me, I huff as a response and start eating. After I was done eating I looked up at them, they were talking privately and I still FEEL LIKE A PEICE A SHIT YAY! I fall backwards purposely hitting my head on the wall with a loud bang, they jumped and quickly turned to me, I chuckled a little rubbing my head as it sting "virgie you ok?" "I'm fine" I say laughing "I did it on purpose anyway" I smirked a little, god I almost cried, they sighed concerned and went back to what they were doing, I secretly got out of my room quietly, i giggled and ran downstairs making sure I didn't get their attention and went outside, I found the shed which was right next to our house and climbed on it, than I climbed onto the roof and sat on top of it, I do this when I feel unwanted, uneasy,worthless,unworthy and stuff like that, they still don't even notice that, I scoot near the edge of the roof and put my elbows on my knees while resting my head in my hands. I close my eyes.

Third POV
Logan talked with them, he turned around to see Virgil..gone!? "Uh guys did you see where Virgil went?" They both turned to him "what do you mean?" Patton said worryingly as Logan sighed "I mean, Virgil isn't here right now I don't know where he is" Roman thought for a minute and told them to search the house, after an hour, they still couldn't find him, Logan Patton realized that's they didn't check outside and smack his head "I just remembered, we haven't checked outside yet," they all sighed and went outside "Virgil are you out here??!"

(Yes I'm doing this again sadly)
Virgils POV
I looked down as I heard my name and chuckled quietly "nooooooo" I yelled quietly, I notice Roman heard and looked up surprised "Virgil get down from there!! Your gonna fall and get hurt!!" The others notice and look up noticing me as well "well.i.dont.care" I said smirking "romans right Virgil, your gonna get hurt" "see!! Even specs agrees with me!" He yelled "fine, fine"I said as I start climbing down and jump off the shed, I looked at them with a smirk and stick my tongue out at them, Patton giggles and sticks his tongue out at me I gasp dramatically "how dare you insult my beauty" I say copying Roman, Roman made offended princy noises as we all laugh "alright, alright let's go inside now" also I should mention it was snowing outside, I looked at Logan and smirked evilly as I grab a ball of snow and throw it at him making him fall back, everyone got surprised "this means war!" Roman whispered yelled. After that we had a pretty rough snowball fight but it was fun, after we stopped and went inside I notice I was the only one shaking, this is why I wanna be a boy, their strong when it comes to cold things. I kept breathing in my hands to get warm as Patton walked in handing all of a us hot chocolate "th-thanks p-pat" I say still freezing, Roman laughs "looks like someone's still cold" "hissss" I responded a little annoyed "awe kitten did you just hiss at me?" he said smirking at me while I stick my tongue out "shush it" "alright you two that's enough" Logan said smiling, I groaned "fineeeeee" I said and laid down on the couch covering myself with five blankets, Patton came as he set his cup down and laid down and cuddled me, I yawn slowly drifting to sleep

Ughhhhhh
I feel like this was way worse than the other ones welp see you in the next chapter yall