What Happened To Jennie Kim? // JENLISA

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JENNIE POV

Lisa bursts into my room and I run to wrap my arms around her.

"There you are sit down" I smile at her , my heart warms up by her presence , I'm so happy she's here.

I sit her down "Jennie we need to talk" she says to me

"We will , just wait I need to give you something"

"Jennie we cant do this anymore" she stops me from speaking and my heart drops , what the fuck does she mean.

We were ok just a while ago and now she's saying this.

Fuck it shouldn't hurt so much , it's only been a few months Lisa and I have been doing things together but for some reason it felt like a lifetime , I felt like I had something exciting to wake up to , I enjoyed my days when I knew I'd go home and see her soon.

Or I'd buy a new outfit in hopes that she would notice and she would.

I've dealt with too much shit to just cry about this even though this hurts like hell to feel torn apart by someone you love so much.

"Oh" my smile drops from my face and she looks at me concerned

"I I told Jisoo"

"I don't need an explanation, it's alright" I smile , I just don't want to cry I rather her get out of my room than me just break down.

I won't cry again , I take deep breaths but the ball in my throat is there , this is the worse pain ever.

"Jennie listen to me" she begs me as she stands up and holds my hand , I flinch backwards

"I know I saw it coming with Jisoo , we both did , do you expect me to act shocked? , anyways , I um I got you a graduation gift , it's late but I got it for you because I missed your graduation , I wasn't there for you on your big day so here's the gift" I hand her the gift bag and she looks so touched but so heart broken , she takes it and pulls out the envelope , I confessed how much I love her in that envelope.

She can notice my behaviour and how much I'm trying my best to seem okay but we both know I'm not okay.

I snatched the envelope and ripped it into pieces , Lisa's eyes widen and she tries to snatch it back , but I'm faster I shove the shredded paper into my pocket.

"No ignore that , just take the rest , I need to go to work now , see you around" i say as i walk out with the shredded paper , leaving to the car , I drive off even though I don't have work I know my manager is short off staff so she'll put me in today.

"JENNIE WAIT" Lisa shouts but I drove off anyways.

I can't deal with this , I'm too damaged , too broken to have another heartbreak or for Lisa to explain that Jisoo didn't accept us. I saw it coming I just wish I would of distanced myself sooner from Lisa when I knew people wouldn't accept us , but it was so hard to , she's so irresistible.

I walk into work and my friends there distract me and our regular customers who gossip with us about random shit.

It's quite funny , I feel like a proper mom sometimes at work because we talk about children , I don't know how I manage to join in when I don't have any but I do anyways.

Why did I have to fucking fall for Lisa out of everyone , now I've fucked up Jisoo and her friendship as well.

I'm not mad at Lisa , she did so much for me , I could never disrespect her , I just can't deal with the confrontation and the heart break and her sitting there and telling me why we can't be together.

I know why we can't be together.

I know Jisoo probably thinks Lisa used me.

I understand.

"You wanna talk about it?" Nayeon asks me

"What do you mean?" I ask her

"Jennie , I've known you for so many years now , I met you when you was a customer at this salon and now you work with me I think I know your sad face by now, your my sister as well as my colleague , you can tell me shit , what's up" she asks me and that's when I drop my face into my hands and quietly sob behind the counter we're customers can't see me.

"Hey hey hey , wipe those tears , call Mama Kim and tell her your having a sleepover at mine , you don't have college tomorrow, you can talk to me okay" Nayeon says to me , fuck I'm so grateful I have her , I pull her for a hug and she hugs me tighter and rubs my shoulder.

"BOSS CAN WE FINISH EARLY , there's no customers left" Krystal shouts

We join in on the begging

The last customers have gone

"NOT YET" Taeyeon shouts at us as she laughs

Nayeon switched up the music and we all begin dancing and messing around whilst there are no customers in the shop.

Looking in the mirror , I'm the only one with Jet Black hair , it's time to add some blonde streaks to my hair , I think I need this new look.

Sad Jennie is going away.

This is like a new chapter for me

New hair new me , well after tonight when I vent to Nayeon , AFTER THAT. NEW ME.

I sit down in my boss's office and write some goals for myself.

This is a step to improvement right?

I'm sick of being boring , sad and having no fucking friends.

Nayeon has tried for so long to get close to me but I've always shut her out , until the salon staff visited me in the hospital with gifts it was until then I realised that I'm such a bitch sometimes , they tried so hard with me and even though I was moody they all accepted that and loved me regardless.

I'm gonna make effort to stay close to them , no more shutting them out .

Opening the paper

Goals.

1. Take self defence classes
2. Get blonde highlights (change your hair you boring bitch)
3. Go out more with friends , have fun
4. Pay attention to your surroundings
5. Do not trust just anyone
6. Gain some more weight
7. Go to the gym
8. Smile more , accept things for the way they are.
9. Graduate

I sigh as I look at that.

Blonde highlights.

"Hey girls , I need something new to my hair" I walk back into the salon and everyone jumps , I have the longest hair here so everyone loves my hair.

Krystal runs to me.

"Sit down and let me work my magic" she smirks and I cover my face in nerves.

She washes , cuts my hair then adds the highlights and then blow dries my hair.

Wow I look not to be vain or anything but I fucking look good.

I don't think the twins will approve of my new look but fuck it , they want me to dress like a nun and I know why ofcourse I do , but I'm more wary now , I've learnt from the first time and I'll never remake those mistakes again.

The next man that will be in my life will have to be 100% approved by my brothers before anything.

But for now my heart is with Lisa , it's always with her , I need to somehow brush her off but the ball in my throat is there everytime I think of her.

But the girls here are hyping me up so much I have no time to cry.

I begin laughing with them.