Can't take control of it [Yeonbin] [BL]

Chapter 09 [END] my stubbornness and your false strength (Beloved)

Two weeks passed and they had a lot of work, so much that they couldn't take care of his personal affairs, even at night, they ate and fell asleep exhausted. Soobin tried his best at the leadership ignoring his feelings and putting the group first, also trying not to worry Taehyun and Kai.

"Soobin we need to talk"

"Hyung, please, not now"

"Then when? you've been avoiding me and... if you were in my place"

"But I'm not"

"Soobin, you look at him differently and the only time we don't argue is when there's no one around"

"You know that's better for us"

"Just break up with me then!"

"What?" Soobin hung up his jacket, he couldn't believe he heard those words, Yeonjun wasn't looking at him, he tried to get close but the other backed off.

"Hyung" he pleaded.

"I like you and that's making me insane, I don't hate him but when I look at you two sleeping together, laughing, every moment I saw you with him makes my blood boils, I know is no one's fault, I hate myself for it, I can't be like him...," surprised by his own words, he covered his mouth and contained his tears.

Soobin wanted to cry too, he doesn't know what to do, he analyzed what was better for them. Maybe Yeonjun was right and they should break up, they were dating for a short time and had had more arguments than happy moments and there was the one he loves the most, feeling like he wasn't worthy and struggling to control himself.

Seeing how he went silent Yeonjun tried to leave, but was caught by Soobin who pulled him closer and hugged him. He forcefully tried to escape but Soobin's arms were stronger.

"I don't want to let you go, I know we can work this out, I..."

"Don't say it"

"But I want to"

"I'm sorry"

"Don't be, it's ok, I only ask you to talk to me whenever you feel insecure and I'll do my best to reassure you, it was my fault too, I assumed you were making a fuss over nothing but for you..."

"It was"

"No, look at me, those ideas may be there without a reason and I can't do anything to fix that but I can do other things to make you believe that you are the perfect being for me, that I only have eyes for you"

"That's too much sugar, stop that." He laughs it off and looked away.

"Yeah, it's embarrassing" They both laughed and Yeonjun hugs him tightly.

The next day Yeonjun apologized to Beomgyu and said that they don't have to stop spending time together, he also told him it was better that way because no one outside the group should know about the relationship and mainly because he needs to work on his jealously problems not avoid them.

Day by day he started to open up a little more to the other members and hanging out with them helped him to ease those worries.

Yeonjun's mentaltangles about his relationship happened less and less, and when they attackedhim Soobin was there to take his hands and listen to him patiently. To reassurehim with those sappy and embarrassing words that Yeonjun will never admits heloves.