All Fear The Doctors - ForthPha

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Pha's POV.

What a world we live in now. As of six years ago, doctors are now legal murderers, everyone fears us, but still comes to us for help. Not all doctors are monsters though. Most of us still do business as usual. But piss us off enough or hurt our family and friends...You're a dead man walking.

Who am I?

I'm Phana Itthipat, 25, Doctor, and leader of Thailand's most powerful Dr Gang, '3Moons'. I started this gang five years ago, after myself, Kit, and Beam were attacked at work. The biggest gang, at the time, "RD" was trying to wipe out all the other doctors that hadn't joined their gang. They didn't want the competition. The three of us were the only ones in Bangkok that hadn't joined the gang. So, they attacked us, tried to scare us into joining. But we fought back - and we won. Now the three of us are the smallest, but most powerful, gang in Thailand. Well, the three of us and Kit's brother Yo, Yo's fiancé Ming, and Beam's ex-boyfriend Forth.

I hate that man a lot.

He broke my brother's heart and then insisted on joining the gang, so he doesn't get attacked by others. I probably would've killed him by now if it wasn't for Beam. He's stopped me every time I've wanted to or tried to. I still don't understand why we let him in - even though I'm the leader of the gang, I was outvoted and the other four let him in. I hate them. But we're family, I just love them.

I just sighed and watched all of them, minus Ming and Kit, plan MingYo's wedding.

Love is so unnecessary – what is it good for anyway? All it does is bring pain and sadness – nothing good ever comes out of it – well, in MingYo's case, they're stuck with a baby now, Yo's four months pregnant. Another thing I hate, kids. They're just so.... ew. I have seven siblings – all younger than me – as well as eleven nieces and nephews. I hate kids. So much.

"Pha? You going to help or not?" Yo asked I shook my head, snapping out of my thoughts.

I get stuck in them a lot. I fived to keep to myself rather than talking to them about things. Unless its gang-related, then I tell them everything. Since there's only fi--- six of us – everyone knows everything. Except for Yo, we keep him in the dark a lot, so he won't stress out too much.

"I'm gonna go out for a bit," I said and then got up to leave the room.

Forth grabbed my arm as I walked by. I just pushed him away and kept walking down to the main floor. The six of us live in a three-floor mansion.

Floor one (main floor) is where all the meetings with other gangs and medical staff happen – that's also where our hospital is. Yes, we own and run our own hospital in our house.

Floor two: 3Moons gang only. This is where we get all our work/spying/etc done.

And floor three: living. This is where our rooms are, kitchens (3), movie room, basically this is our actual house. It's nice here, a bit unsafe with the hospital, but otherwise, it's great.

"You ok?" Forth asked.

I ignored him and walked away. I really didn't want to see or talk to him right now. I didn't want to talk to anyone honestly. I just wanted to be left alone for a bit. That's not good for my mental health, but it's the best I can do right now to avoid any fights with the others. Especially with Forth.

I sighed walking out to the living room, grabbing my gun and knife just in case something happens. Then I opened the door and walked out ignoring the others asking what's wrong. Nothing is wrong. I am fine.

Forth. He's the reason for my issues right now. I hate him, but recently I've been feeling something different towards him, and I don't like it. I think...

I like... him...

but I can't - how could I like the man that hurt my brother? How could I date my brother's ex? That's gotta be breaking some unspoken-brother rule... right? I hate him. I want to keep hating him. But there's just something about him that makes me want him. I just can't figure out what that something is... What am I even doing right now? It's five in the morning, snowing, and I'm walking around in t-shirt and sweatpants. What the fuck am I doing?

I walked for about five minutes before deciding to head back home. It was too cold. Even for me, and I love the cold. But I think negative five degrees is where I draw the line for loving the cold.

As I started walking back Yo and Kit were waiting outside with a few blankets. These idiots. I love them – but Yo shouldn't be out here. He can't afford to get sick – it'll hurt the baby.

"P'Pha, it's too cold out here, get back inside," Yo said and wrapped a blanket around me.

"It's too cold for you out here, I'm fine Nong," I said and made him go inside before Kit or I did.

Once he was in, I followed – took the elevator straight to the third floor – and went to my room – locking the door so Forth couldn't get in. That plan backfired – badly. I couldn't even tell you what happened between me locking the door and being slammed against it by Forth seconds later.

"What the fuck?!" I asked and struggled to get out of Forth's hold. I may be the leader – but I am not the strongest of this gang. That would be Forth, as much as I hate to admit it. He's the muscle of the gang. He's proving that now by trapping me against the door.

He didn't say anything – he just kept staring at me.

"Forth! What the fuck are you doing?!" I asked again – instead of an answer.

He kissed me. – I tried fighting back – but once again – my body took over my brain and I kissed him back. I don't know why I did. But I did – and I don't regret it. But I knew as soon as it ended that I'd start regretting it.

"Pha, you ok? I heard something fall," Ming asked from outside the door. Forth moved away from me so I could answer.

"I'm fine, just dropped my laptop," I lied and Forth looked impressed.

And then shoved me down onto his bed and kissed me again. I want to hit him, I want to hate this, and I really hate how much I'm loving this. I don't understand it though... I've hated him for the last six years, and now suddenly that's taken a 108° - now I'm confused as fuck. After a few more minutes of being confused, Forth finally stopped and got off me, sitting beside me and then pulled me onto his lap.

"What are you doing?" I asked and finally made eye contact with him after avoiding it for the last few minutes.

"I don't know if I'm being 100% honest, just got tired of you avoiding me all the time. What did I even do to you?" Forth asked and looked a bit sad. Forth really had no idea why I was mad at him.

"You broke Beam's heart, why would I be nice to you after that?" I asked and Forth gave me a blank stare until he started laughing. I just glared at him until he stopped and made me look up at him – I'm still sitting on his lap.

"Beam broke my heart, I wasn't the 'bad guy', Beam cheated on me, I didn't cheat on him. Whatever Beam told you about our breakup was a lie to keep you from hating him the way you're hating me now. I'm not a liar Pha, you know that – and you also know how good Beam is at lying," Forth said and I was shocked. I couldn't believe that I've been hating the wrong person for the last like... six years. But it started to make sense – everyone else seemed to have something against Beam – but not Forth. That always confused me. Now it's starting to piece together what had really happened...

"I'm sorry... why... why couldn't you tell me sooner? It's been six fucking years Forth, why'd you let me treat you so badly for so long?" I don't cry – I never even come close to crying. But I started crying after realizing what was happening. Forth just hugged me and let me cry, he didn't say anything – at least, I don't think he said anything. I fell asleep from how badly I cried.

I'm a horrible man...