All Fear The Doctors - ForthPha

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Pha's POV.

Forth hadn't said a word about it. He just wheeled over to the desk and signed the papers before handing them to me with a smile. He looked happy – but I couldn't tell if he was happy, or just faking it for me. Forth has always been very mysterious and known to be very fake in certain situations. I hope this isn't one of those situations.

"Pha, you have to sign it too," Forth said a few minutes later and I snapped out of my thoughts and signed the papers.

Waii was officially min--- ours.

"We get a second chance, this time we'll both be there," Forth said after the worker left.

"this time, he'll live," I mumbled and Forth did his best to hug me while sitting down.

"he's a fighter babe, he'll live a long life," Forth said and wheeled down to the NICU – I followed him. (not dating, just using babe as a nickname)

He stopped in front of the visitor's window and waited for me to open the door.

Maybe this was 'reset' I needed, the second chance to be the best father (or mother) that I can be. Aro would be proud of me. I haven't forgotten him, but I'm finally moving on. And now Forth's helping – making up for the time that he wasn't there for Aro. It's ok that he wasn't there the first time though, I didn't even know it was him anyway – so it's ok. But now he at least gets to be a father with me again in a way.

"This is Waii," I said and helped Forth stand up a bit to look over the top of Waii's bed. He's met Waii before, but now it's different, he's meeting his son now. That still feels weird to think about. Five minutes ago, this baby was just a patient, now he's my son... this is going to take some adjusting. A lot of adjusting.

"What exactly is wrong with him?" Forth asked after he sat back down. He's never seen Waii with all the wires and machines hooked up to him before – he's only seen him when I hold him and he's off the machines for a few moments.

There's a couch placed in the room for patients' families to sit at when their visiting – so I sat over there, and helped Forth up, before opening Waii's file on my phone and explaining it all to him. Every time I started a new page, I could see Forth's hope in him just get smaller and smaller.

"What's his chances at surviving this?" Forth asked just getting more and more worried over the baby.

"It's about 20/100 now. Once I operate on his heart, and he makes it, it'll jump to at least 50/100. I'm worried too, I just have to try and not think about it," I said and Forth hugged me, when I'm stressed, I just need cuddles and sleep. But I have work to do right now. So, a hug will have to do for now.

We stayed down there for a couple hours, not talking at all, just silently trying to figure out what we we're gonna do next. Would we have to split Yo's nursery? Would Waii even be well enough to have a room upstairs with us? Would he even make it through his surgeries coming up? Am I even ready to operate on him? Is his body ready for that? There's so many things running through my head right now – way too many questions that don't and never will have definitive answers. I'm worrying myself over something completely out of my control. Even Forth can tell that there's too much going on in my head and all of it isn't necessary. But I know he's just as scared as I am. He's worried too.

Waii only woke up once while we were down there, he smiled seeing me once he opened his eyes – but giggled a lot when he was able to see Forth beside me as well. He's such a happy baby. Has no idea what negativity is - hope he never does, but that's asking way too much. Without negativity you can't have happiness...

"Pha! Something's wrong with Yo!" Ming yelled running around the hospital looking for me. I guess Kit and Beam went out somewhere if he's looking for me.

I set Waii down and rushed to Ming who led me to Yo who looked like he was in a lot of pain.

"What's up?" I asked and got Yo into a room and hooked him up to different machines.

"I think the baby is coming now..."

Great... guess I'm doing this alone...