Poems on a dark night 🖤

Go the distance.

I wrote 100 sad songs about you and yet this grief feels like it will stay with me for 10 more years
I said 19 good words, one for ever year you are alive and yet you still cannot see your worth
Got 2 tattoos that are meaningful for me as much as they are to you, of course we got couples ones, must have jumped in too soon
You left a mark on me permanently
Me brain feels confused about your fatality
Why did you have to leave on me
No, don't get it twisted I'm being overdramatic when I said you left me, you ghosted me
But how do men get away with throwing around the word 'I love you', which they seem to immediately regret and throw away as if the word was poison
Yet when a women leaves feeling like she was treated less, she is called all sorts of names
You get told it's so funny isn't it, you can't stick to commitment
Yet I'm so dirty, so shameful for just wanted to be treated for what I'm with
Wish I could find someone worth 'going the distance' who wouldn't even mind if all we did for 9 years was cuddle and kiss because I was saving a moment for someone special but you took that away once you fooled me with your words
I may not have the purity but I hope to god the next guy or girl I meet will take me as I am and make lasting future plans
Oh god, I'm begging you I know I haven't believed in you before but I am so tired of being lead on lead astray and hurt
Please find me someone who will travel a couple miles to see me smile
Somebody who will hold me as if I was going to break if they let go
Doesn't ask 'what the fuck is this' if they see a flaw on my pretty skin that is paper white and probably made to be a clean slate as god wishes
Oh please find me someone who would take all my flaws and travel the distance, paying for the extra baggage and all.