(Pacifica's p.o.v)
I hated my life. Some people have problems but I've never met anyone who was as broken as me. And yet I decided to hide it all with makeup.
I decided that today was the day I died. I knew my parents didn't care if I died. So that's why it would be ok. But then again dipper would fall into depression.
I was thinking about that and then I jumped up. Bad nightmares. It's a common thing when you have PTSD problems.
Like dipper said the stars welcome me with open arms. So I would sit up there and be a star.
My alarm started making noises.
Beeper! Beeper! Beeper!
I buried my head in my pillow ro avoid the noise. I didnt know if I wanted to go through with this. Half of the town hated me. But half of the town loved me.
I walked to my closet. I put on my favorite vintage dress. It was black with a white collar. I put on some white tights then some flats.
My mom was passed out on the couch. Her car keys were on the floor. I grabbed them and went to our garage. I saw a Lamborghini and decided to use that for my plan. I knew how to drive already.
I put the keys in and started up the car. I drove to a small mountain that had a lake nearby. I glanced at the place me and dipper would always meet. I grabbed a pen and a notepad. I wrote
"Sorry I couldn't make it tonight. You can find me by the lake. I love you. But this world didn't love me. Goodbye dipper. I'll never forget you".
I tossed it out the window and it landed close to the small tree stump. I rolled the window back up and stared at the sky and clouds. It was the last thing I'd ever see.
I got the pen and notepad and wrote my suicide note.
"Hello, whomever reads this, this is the suicide note of Pacifica northwest. Tell my parents I loved them. And I always will. Tell dipper I'll never forget him. Please tell wendy thank you for everything. Thank you for reading have a good life. Something I didn't have".
I placed it on one of the backseats.
"I'm ready. Goodbye cruel world. I'll always love you dipper" I said smiling.
I hit the pedal and drove off the road.
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PTSD (dipcifia)
Fanfictioneveryone had always known pacifa as the spoiled rich girl of the town. but she just wanted to be a normal teenager. she was crushed that she missed her chance to tell dipper how she felt. but when they return for their second summer things will take...
