MIDSUMMER THOUGHTS ➸ poetry & prose

only for you, v

i don't remember much
and you can say i try not to
because the past is as it is
when you never told me why
you were inching so far away
just to run back to the start

you could say we've been friends
or you can deny any connection
i'll let you drawa the cards
and i would never mind
when it comes to you,
i never do

you liked writing so much
maybe that's why
i fell in love with it, too
i never admitted how good you are
and i never plan to
when it comes to you,
i never do

you never got scared of horror movies
and you make me unafraid too
i distract myself by memorizing you
copying you, so it seems
because i am never scared
when you aren't as well
and maybe that's one of the reasons why
i admire you to the ends of the sky
but i would never admit it
for when it comes to you,
i never do

you make me laugh so much
and maybe, that's the best part
my reservations all disappear
when you joke around and a smile appears
but, still, i would never dare say it
for when it comes to you,
i never do

i don't know if you already get it
when it comes to you,
i am never brave
i am always calculating—
but i like you, nonetheless
and i hope you like yourself too
forgive me, i have heard your story;
known those scars
and heard your heart break
but i never talked about it
because when it comes to you,
i never do
for i am never brave

the time to part ways is nearing
and this time,
i can say we've been friends
but never just close enough
and to you, these are what i never said
when it comes to you,
i never did

even if the time comes
and our path cracks into two lanes
to a few years and more,
these memories with you will never fade
with our remaining time
let us make more, shall we?

however, do not make promises
never plan anything,
never overthink
i like who you are now
just as who you were yesterday
and i'm sure i'd like
who will you be tomorrow
for when it comes to you,
i always do