My Brother's Best Friend

We hate and we love. PartII (On the bus later that same day)

-Ashley POV-

My mind was still spinning on what Andy said. Did he really mean that? What he said about my sister being his everything? But he's dating Juliet, how can he... Waite! Before I jump to any conclusions I need to man up and apologize to Jenna and Andy.

He's right, what king of brother am I? I should've been here not there with what ever her name was.

"Okay what's wrong?" I jumped when I heard Jake next to me.

"I thought you where sleeping man." I chuckled quietly since every one else was pretty much dead.

"I was, but your aura woke me up." He's stretched his arms while I looked at him like he was a loon.

"My what?" I asked in all seriousness.

"Your aura. It's like an energy source you give off." I still looked at him weird and he rolled his eyes. "It's a weird feeling you nymph." He said. Well at least now I know where Jenna gets calling people a "nymph" when she's annoyed from.

"I'm not a nymph." I mumbled before realizing this whole "aura" thing still confused me. "Anyway what's up with this whole 'aura' thing? I mean, what do you mean 'my aura woke you up'?"

"It's normally like white but now it's more like grey." He mumbled.

"Jake you sound like a stoner! Please speak English!" I said grabbing his shoulders and shaking him.

"White aura means perfect balance of all emotions, while grey is more of a sad, and emotional color..." He paused and looked at me again this time studding me. "So what's wrong?" He asked again.

"I don't know man I think I fu.cked sh.it up big time." I said putting my head I'm my hands.

"How, and with who?"

"With Jenna, and now Andy just called me out on it cause I wasn't here for her... I haven't been here for her, ever since... My parents died..." Wow... Now that I really think she's been- no is going threw hell when I'm gone. I need to talk to her. "I need to talk to Jenna. Thanks Jake your stoner talk really helped." I said as I got up from the couch and went to the bunks.

-Jenna POV-

I woke up to hearing Ash saying he needs to talk to me, but truth is I don't want to talk to him. I needed him today and he wasn't here. Turned to face the wall when I heard foot steps coming my way.

"Jenna?" I heard as I felt a slight shift in the mattress. "Jenna I know you're awake." He paused as came closer to me I closed my eyes. "Please just talk to me... Jenna?... Jennifer." Okay that crosses the line.

"Dammit Ash my names not Jennifer, you know-"

"HA, got you talking!" He smiled and pointed.

"God you're so immature." I said as I turned back to the wall.

"Jenna?" He asked a little more heart felt this time.

"What?" I said still not looking at him.

"I'm sorry." He blurted out and hugged me. "I'm sorry for not being there when you need me. I'm sorry for not hanging out with you enough when I was home. I'm sorry for not being a good big brother, and-" He sniffed a little, was he crying? I didn't turn around to find out the answer when I heard him choke out the last of he's sentence. "and I-I'm sorry for not being with you when you tried-to- you. I'm so sorry Jenna. I'm the worst brother ever." He sobbed in to my shoulder even harder. I remember exactly what he was trying to say like it was yesterday and I turned to comfort him the only two ways I know how.

"Shh, Ash it's okay you're not the worst brother if anything you're the best, and what I did was a long time ago, I'm trying to over power that made me hurt myself and you're helping me, the guys are helping me. Don't blame that on yourself, if anything blame it on the stupid people that made me do it." I said whole heartedly. I hugged him as he cried softer. A few moments later he looked up tears stained his face.

"You don't have to forgive me, I know Andy won't." He wiped his face and sat up.

"I know but I do."

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Picture connection: Jake gave Ashley a reality check without actually saying anything.