Endzone: SM Ent. OC Boygroup- Part One

Endzone: 100

Hello, my dear friends. Are you there? Do you exist? How are you?

It hasn't been long since I started this story but it truly feels like it. I've been having so much fun doing it and I hope that if anyone is reading it they are enjoying it too.

I realize that interaction with your readers is the biggest part of doing this and I kind of miss some of that interaction but honestly I get it. You can only have fan interactions when you have them which I don't.

If you are reading this I just want to thank you for being here and supporting my work. I haven't done much yet but I'm very happy with it.

I'm not a good artist or a good writer but I believe I can improve and give you guys a better work.

I kept thinking what to do for this chapter but I really couldn't figure out what to do and no one really said what they wanted to see so I'm just writing whatever comes to mind.

Anyways, I figured I could try and write something else too, something that could attract people in hopes to get people to read this one but I don't think I should do that just with that premise in mind. Although, I feel like that's the only way and I won't be able to run away from it.

I wish I wanted to write ship fanfics, imagines, BTS fics, but I really am not interested in doing so. I like making my own characters but people don't want to see that in the K-Pop world, sadly. I'm at a loss quite frankly, I want to do this but not having readers kind of makes me a little frustrated. It almost seems like this is pointless if no one cares about it. I wanted to meet people and have them interact with me, with the characters.

I could keep blaming it on many things but I think that it's just that this is not good enough. The name is boring, the premise isn't interesting, the art isn't good, the writing is weak, there really isn't anything to make this story stand out.

Sorry for just spilling out all of my thoughts, the negative ones and all. I just have bad days, way more than good days lately, but what can I even do about it? My mind is just too stubborn, it wants what it wants and gets really annoying when it doesn't. I wish I weren't like this, I wish I could be positive about my work, about myself, about everything but it seems like I can't change the way I am. Everyone tells me that I have to want to change and work for it but why can't I do it?

Why is it so hard to change? It's not like I don't have the will but it also seems like I don't have it. I feel like I'm being too confusing and too depressing so I hope now there's no one reading this. Actually, I don't have to worry because I know for a fact that no one reads this except for 4 lovely people. 2 of them are beautiful friends I have in my real life and the other two are sweet people that I met through this. To them, I want to say thank you so much. I've been doing this mostly because I believe you'll be reading it later on. Thank you.

I'm really sorry for this weird chapter but maybe if anyone reads it, they might get me or relate to it, I don't know.

In any case, thanks for amazing 100 chapters, I'm excited for the next 100.

Next chapter I'll be kicking off the character profiles for My First and Last by Endzone M. Art is done and I just have to make the video.

Much love to you all!