Let Me Go

Gone

Oh my goodness it feels so good to back in LA! Billie and I just dropped our luggage onto the apartment floor. She tosses me her keys, "Hey angel can you make a food run while I unpack?"

"Can do baby," I say pulling her into a kiss.

Upon my return, I hear her on the phone. "God, yes thank you so much babe! Just do me a favor and keep this between me and you, I can't have a Hayden finding out."

"Can't having me finding out that you're cheating, yet again!" I snap and Billie turns around with her eyes wide. Bingo. She's been caught.

"I promise, it's not what you think," she says pleading.

"Don't even try explaining your way out of this one O'Connell..." I say turning away from her running my fingers through my hair, only to pull it in frustration. I'm fucking seething with rage.

"Hayden, angel please!"

I just hold up my hand, signaling for her to stop trying to talk.

I see the vase I bought from the thrift store on our first date soar past me and crash on the floor. This bitch really just broke my favorite possession that we had together... she wanted my attention, well now she's got it. I turn around and walk towards her with pure anger in my eyes, and she still has that signature stupid smirk on her face. I grab a fistful of her hair and yank her down so she's under my control. I guide her to the front door of our apartment and shove her outside.

"Stay the fuck away from me!" I screamed.

The look of panic set in and her eyes went wide "Well where am I supposed to go, that's my apartment too..." she cried out.

I glared at her hoping she could feel the hate radiating off of me, "I don't care where you go, and frankly as far as you and I are concerned we're over and would you look at that, I've just kicked you out. Have a nice life without me you backstabbing cheater!"

I slammed the door in her face and then collapsed to the floor. The realization of what I had just done hit me like a truck. I sat there on the floor bawling my eyes out. A few moments pass and I hear the rumble of her starting her car.

She's leaving me.

I'm finally free.

But why do I feel so empty?

I pick myself up off of the floor and sweep up the bits of broken vase off of the floor. Fuck this shit I can't stay here, it's technically Billie's apartment. I call the only other person I'm remotely close to.

"Hey babe, what's up?" Claudia says answering the phone.

"Hey... can I come stay with you for awhile?"

"Yes of course! Is everything ok?" she asks.

"No but we'll talk when I get there, I'll see you soon."

I bag up my shit and leave.

~~~~

I took some time off of work and today is my first day back. I requested to be reassigned to a different artist again, and spent the day in my office reading up on potential musicians that want to collaborate, and a few spark my interest.

All of a sudden my door opens and in walks Billie dressed in all black. She places a box on my desk, "While I have you here, I'm going to speak and you're going to listen. That day when you so gently shoved me out the front door of my own fucking house, I wasn't calling a side chick to hook up Hayden. I was on the phone with Claudia planning an engagement party because up until that point, I wanted to marry the shit out of you. But for some unknown reason you always assume the worst in me. Granted, yes I did cheat and we moved past that, but you take every opportunity to remind me that I fucked up! I stood by you through everything Hayden... I fought for our relationship. But the more rough patches we'd hit, I'd be the one fighting while you'd be the one running and pushing me away... This was for you but I don't have a use for it anymore, so just... considering it a parting gift. Because I'm done. I'm completely and utterly done." Billie vents shouting at me before storming off.

I thought my heart was broken before, but it fucking shattered when I opened the box and saw a ring inside.

She really did want to marry me...

But now she doesn't.

She's done.

She's gone.

a/n: that's it for this book bubbies. And yes, there will be a sequel.

Whatchu think is gonna happen in the next book?