ENVY | SDS Present ✔ (TO BE EDITED)

Chapter 20

The bottom of the cliff where I fell is noting but spears. Those spears stabbed every piece of my body and it made sure I can't function anymore. Akala ko sasaluhin ako ni Caius. Akala ko lang pala.

I've been killed twice this day. My dream was shattered. Halos mamatay na ako sa pagod para lang pag-ipunan ang pang-college ko pero nabaliwala lang ang pinag-hirapan ko dahil sa isang hindi totoong bintang. Ang mas masakit pa doon ay mas pinaniwalaan ni Caius ang bintang na iyon kaysa sa akin. Ibig sabihin lang nun ay talagang hindi nya ako mahal dahil hanggang ngayon ay si Athena pa rin ang mahal nya.

I don't know what is his reason for doing all those things for me. Care. Pity. Or he was just playing me because I don't care anymore. That was just reality's way of telling me to stop my delusions. That I should face the truth that Caius will never love me.

Sobrang lungkot ni Lola Sol nang sabihin ko sa kanya na hindi na ako gagraduate and she insisted to talk with our Principal but I stopped her dahil baka maatake pa sya. I still continued to work at the restaurant every night and during daytime, I help Lola Sol in the carinderia.

Sometimes, I just feel tears falling from my eyes kaya mabilis ko silang pinupunasan. Crying once is enough. Hindi ko na kailangan pang iyakan sila dahil wala namang mababago.

"Finn, may naghahanap sa iyo." Lea said.

Lumabas naman ako sa bakery at nagulat ako nang makita si Wayne who's wearing his uniform. It's Saturday today and it means it's graduation day. Binigyan ko naman sya ng isang maliit na ngiti bago yumuko sa pintuan para makalabas.

"Congrats, Wayne!" Masaya kong sabi but his serious face didn't changed.

"I'm sorry." Sabi nya na nakapag-bura sa ngiti ko.

"Bakit naman?" Nagtataka kong tanong.

"Now I understand why you made me stop courting you." He said before he sighed and I saw how guilt appeared in his eyes. "I should have stopped, Finn. Dapat hindi na kita hinarana at hindi na rin sana ako nagtapat nung gabing yun. Sana, sana kasama ka naming nag-graduate."

I felt tears formed in my eyes but I quickly blinked them away. I touched Wayne's arm and gave him a small smile.

"Wala ka namang kasalanan, Wayne. Ako itong nagpa-asa sa iyo--"

"Pero nagpumilit pa rin ako, Finn." He said before he gently removed my hand from his arm.

"I'm sorry." Mahina nyang sabi habang diretsong nakatingin sa mga mata ko.

"Don't be. I'm not mad." Sincere kong sabi dahil yun naman talaga ang totoo.

"I'll study in Michigan kaya baka ito na ang huli nating pagkikita." Malungkot nyang sabi kaya bahagya din akong nalungkot.

"Pumunta lang ako dito para talaga makapag-sorry. Goodbye, Finn." He said before hugging me and I hugged him back.

Naging normal ang naging mga araw ko pagkatapos ng pag-uusap namin ni Wayne. Hindi na ako umasa na pupuntahan nya ako at pinilit kong burahin sya sa isipan ko dahil nalulungkot lang ako sa tuwing naiisip ko sya.

"Tao po! Tao po!"

Lumabas ako ng banyo at nakita kong alas onse na ng gabi. Sino namang pupunta dito ng ganitong oras? I immediately opened the gate when I saw Daniella outside. Nagtataka man ay pina-upo ko sya sa isa sa mga upuan sa carinderia.

"I gathered some guts kaya ngayon pa lang kita pinuntahan." Sabi nya kaya kumunot ang noo ko.

I saw how her face softened and I was surprised because it is the first time I saw this kind of expression from Daniella.