[2nd Novel] I'll Still Love You Even If You're a Man

Chapter 23 - What kind of creatures are human beings?

Published on 28.05.2020

This is just a rough English Translations.

Original novel credit to the author, Angelina

Editor & Translator: Sya / jimin_coups

Chapter 23 - What kind of creatures are human beings ?

The bus drove slowly along the smooth and wide road. Mai ding leaned his head against the window. The fog had disappeared in his eyes, and he still did not cry.

If he keeps stay on the bus, will Anzi Yan chase himself?

His thoughts and actions ran counter to each other. When he arrived at the familiar platform,  Mai ding still got out of the bus. He looked up at his and An Ziyan's house and walked in the direction he should go.

Coming back, it becomes a habit, one day sooner or later, waiting will also become a habit.

He took out the key, but he did n't want to open the door, because  Mai ding knew that An Ziyan was not inside, but he could go there. After entering the house and closing the door, he looked around the room. Trapped in it, waiting for An Ziyan humbly, from youth to middle age to old age, can he only wait?

Mai ding was a little scared suddenly, even if he could do this, one day he might never wait for An Ziyan to return.

If  Mai ding wants to stop working, will he destroy his legs and personality, soak them in the formalin of love and wait to be out of touch with society?

The key in Mai ding hand fell on the floor, and he saw the resume printed on the coffee table. He rushed to pick it up.

Tearing hard, the debris continued to fall from his hands. It was no longer needed.  Mai ding threw the waste paper into the trash can and then touched the phone to turn it off.

Then he rushed into the bedroom and unplugged the network cable to find a job. Nothing was needed. Mai ding only needed An Ziyan, who only wanted him to stay at home.

He started wiping each piece of furniture with a rag, which is just fine, no need to worry about not finding a job, no need to worry about a cruel society, he just stayed at home leisurely, which could not be better.

He wiped desperately, the sweat between his forehead slipped into his eyes. He closed his eyes tightly and tried to wipe with the back of his hand, but he couldn't wipe it away.

What should I do in my life? I also want to know what it is like to grow up in the next stage. I also want to have work and colleagues like you, I also want to ...

If I hold such an idea is it a betrayal of love? Was I too selfish? An Ziyan, where are you, can you answer my question.

You are not here. I sit in this world and clearly see you are going to another world, but I just sit. When I want to keep up with you, you have entered another world.

Everyone went, only me, stay.

Mai Ding prepares meals alone, sits quietly at the dining table, eats dishes alone, presses the remote control while sitting on the sofa, baths alone, and lies in bed early.

Mai ding turned on all the lights in the room. He couldn't cry and couldn't get angry. Recently he was getting used to such a day. An Ziyan would come back too late sometimes.

Suddenly  Mai ding didn't want to think about anything, so eager to fall asleep. But the more urgent a person wants to fall asleep, sleep will fool you, everything is against him, he opens his eyes, he closes his eyes, so repeated and useless.

Depression and insomnia may be good friends.

When will An Ziyan come back, what will he say after returning, and what will he say, will the two quarrel?

It may not be appropriate to use the word quarrel. It is Mai ding who is in the mood all the time.

He don't know how long after that, Mai ding heard the sound of opening the door, the sound of clothes falling, the sound of water in the bathroom, the sound of the lights being turned off one by one, the sound of An Ziyan lying down beside him, and then the smooth and familiar breathing.

An Zi Yan acted as nothing happened,  Mai ding should ask what?

But who stipulates that An Ziyan must admit that he is correct in front of his colleagues, and for a while, Mai ding does not know what An Ziyan did wrong,

Mai ding doesn't know what he did wrong, so how should he explain the current situation and mood.

When An Ziyan was away,  Mai ding's heart was really okay. When An Ziyan was there,  Mai ding suddenly felt so, so in need of warmth, his lonely body wanted to be surrounded by Anzi Yan,

It's ridiculous, so stupid, just a hug will make  Mai ding satisfied, and he can pretend that nothing happened.

While watching TV and watching the news, he also felt helpless and incomprehensible to the lovers who did all kinds of stupid things for feelings. Now look at himself, maybe some people are now blaming him for not being too humble.

But the feelings are terrible, and the heart is clearer than anyone else, but they ca n't do it, and they ca n't be scolded by anyone.

In the darkness, An Ziyan's voice came too suddenly:

"Did you understand?"

There was a painful blow on  Mai ding 's chest. The time given by An Ziyan was too short. Was it necessary to give up everything in one night?

The first or only question he cares about is this?

How can he see his wounds before him?

Mai ding, who turned his back to An Ziyan, silently wryly smiled, he probably already guessed the result, he would give up for him, willing to stay at home, where is he confident, oh, he should be confident,  Mai ding's The answer came out in his mouth:

"I want to understand."

"Also, don't just turn off your phone in the future."

In the future? Whose future will it be your future or the one you stipulated for me? Is there a difference if I turn off the phone?

Just wait for you to come back home.

Mai ding did not say these words at all. He was tired of quarreling today, and he simply answered:

"Okay."

When  Mai ding nearly collapsed, An Ziyan reached out and naturally embraced  Mai ding in his arms, just like the two never quarreled today, and never pretended not to know  Mai ding, just like today is the same as usual, His voice was lazy and sleepy, and he seemed to fall asleep at any time, sounding like a whisper:

"Waiting for me to wake up."

The warmth clung to his back, and  Mai ding closed his eyes. A hot tear fell down and was absorbed by the pillow. He forgot his life and work in the future. This second, he needed only this warmth.

What kind of creature is man, how can  Mai ding be so helpless to the person he likes.

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