my heart gets confused when it's constantly told 'i love you' by the same person who destroyed it.
[written on april 3rd, 7:47 am.]
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"it's not like you're gay or anything, right?" hadley snorts, "no, i'm not gay. i just don't think it's right that you're picking on someone you don't even know," i defend. rolling my eyes. there's a new girl at school, and of course there are already rumors and shit,
"okay okay but- have you seen her?
she looks weird," thomas says,
"you're one to talk," i scoff, "haha very funny," he says, rolling his eyes. shrugging my shoulders i turn my head towards kelsey,
leaning my head on her shoulder. biting into my apple, we were all currently at lunch.
the biggest place for people to gossip and talk shit, for whatever reason. my friend group consists of hadley, brad, thomas, kelsey, and me, my names valentina, val - for short,
"i mean come on, she looks like a total lesbian, have you seen what she wears? her clothing choices literally scream 'i love fucking girls," brad says, using air quotes, an annoying smirk spread across his face as he rudely talks shit about someone he doesn't even know personally,
"so what if she does like girls?" kelsey asked, "yeah. what's your problem with it?" i add on, homophobia is not cool, at all, that shits disgusting. "i mean, nothing is wrong with it, exactly- it's just, different," brad states, nodding to himself. "whatever," i shake my head, i don't even understand why everyone's head was in their ass about this new girl, like is it really that important?
"anyway, are you guys ready for madison's party this weekend? i heard its gonna be a banger," hadley starts a new conversation,
"yeah, i actually want to go for once this time," i respond, "maybe this time i won't get puked on," kelsey says, looking off into the distance probably replaying the moment some middle schooler who wasn't even supposed to be there drank to much at one of madison's parties.
"what's the new girls name, anyway?" i ask, looking around the cafeteria,
"bailey? brianna? briley?, i don't know," thomas says, raising his eyebrows,
"i think it's billie," kelsey says,
"mhm," i nod, "i wanna meet her," i say grinning, it's never to late to meet new friends- plus, she's new, she probably doesn't have very many, or any at all.
lunch ends and we all go to our other classes, mine being- history. gross.
i walk with my head down most of the way there, not even paying attention to any of my surroundings.
"oh shit, sorry," i hear, i look up to see i accidentally bumped into a girl with blue eyes and silver hair, "it's my bad, i'm sorry," i say, smiling at her, "what's your name,?" she asks, "valentina, and you?" "billie," she responds.
