No Cherry no deal~ (Tendou Satori x Reader)

Out Of My Head

⚠️it's a bit sad⚠️ (pls don't cry like me, while writing this 😭🥺)

It has been two year since Satori and I kissed...he hasn't asked me out yet. He had gone back to college and I finished my last year at Shiratorizawa. I lived with my dad still because I was scared to live on my own but I had a job so I payed for all my things so I could stay. I haven't seen Satori since he left but he called me all the time...but that soon changed into him only calling me when he had time...and that into him not calling me at all.

I work at a very popular cafe that pays pretty well. I have enough money for a house and to provide for myself but I'm too afraid to be alone so I choose to stay with my father.

Oh how I miss Satori...I miss seeing his smile...his eyes...hearing his voice...his laughter...I miss talking about nothing for hours with no end...I miss watching anime with him...watching Blue Exorcist...but mostly, I just miss....him. Even though me and Kou are still good friends and talk all the time I can't help but feel so alone without him...

Kou was always there to listen to me. Her and Shirabu have been doing so well. He even proposed to her!

I was really happy for her. I was. I am. I'm very happy. For her.

I decided to let go. I know it's gonna be hard to do so...but I gotta try. I have to put him in the past and forget what we had. The beautiful bond we shared. How we fell in love. How much I loved him. How much I still love him. How much I've missed him. How much I'm gonna miss him. God dammit...it hurts. It hurts so bad. Why?! Why does the pain never end?! Why won't it go away!!!?? Why can't I just forget!!??

I want to move on. I do. I tried. It won't work. It won't. It hurts. It does. So bad. I want it to go away. It won't. It's hard. I can't do this anymore.

How am I supposed to forget something so wonderful!!?? I can't help it! I loved him! So much! Why!? Why did he go and stop talking to me!??! I can't stop thinking...did I do something wrong??? Did he want me to call him?? Did I say something??? Has he even noticed??? Does he miss me??? Does he think about me???

WHY!!?? WHY WON'T THE PAIN GO AWAY!?? WHY?!!

I can't get him out of my head...

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Don't worry Reader-Chan!!!

Author-Sempai will make it better soon!!

I luv u!💞💕💗💖💝❣️🥺🥺