Beautiful Feeling [COMPLETE]

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Jeongguk was frozen on his seat and shuddered as his baby's words finally fucking processed and clicked the right cogs in his brain.

It all dawned on him. The realization hit hard and fast like a bullet train.

Tonight was April 5th.

Taehyung's fading scars on his once beautiful, flawless, honey-dipped legs.

The moment when his baby had trouble showering because he couldn't move his legs and his fucked up mind accused his baby of fucking around.

Or that time when Taehyung was convulsing and Jeongguk finally saw the blisters which already got infected. But his baby refused to be brought to the hospital because they could barely afford a five-minute consultation.

Or when Taehyung asked him to pick him up in the middle of the night, but Jeongguk ignored his messages and had the fucking audacity to drink with his friends that night.

He did not know that Taehyung worked on graveyard shift that day to pay for rent which was overdue.

Jeongguk was an absolute idiot. He does not deserve even a strand of Taehyung's hair. 

Taehyung could go and ramble about his pains and they would be surprised at the amount.

"H-How did it all come to this?" Taehyung murmured with a light wince, eyes growing wise as if his outburst registered just now. Jeongguk's tears flowed like a fucking damn and carefully reached out to dry his baby's tears with his thumb.

Taehyung flinched at his touch. Jeongguk sniffled and pressed their foreheads together. They pulled away and Jeongguk observed his baby's face.

Taehyung looked scared...lost... but this angel chose him above all his fears.

His sweet, adorable, pretty baby who was has been strong for too long is slowly breaking into pieces in front of him, exposing slivers of vulnerability, pure emotions and bottled up thoughts.

"D-did I always make you f-feel that way... all this time, baby? W-Why didn't you say so? We could have gone back to Busan..." Jeongguk whispered atop his breath and Taehyung glared at him out of utter disbelief.

He had been wearing his heart on his sleeve all along and Jeongguk sounded like he never knew... or he hardly ever paid attention.

Taehyung was reminded of his rage and pains.

"Go back and then what? So you can blame me all my life because I failed to support your dreams?" Taehyung hypothesized, eyes damp with frightened tears.

Silence engulfed them. Jeongguk finally understood his fucking self-pity parties that scarred Taehyung for life. He wants to kill himself for all the pains and troubles he caused the love of his life.

His beautiful, sweet baby deserves all the love he can give. To hurt Taehyung was the last thing he ever wanted but he's done fucked up now.

At that moment, their thoughts are in haywire, unwanted emotions buried six-feet deep in their hearts and feelings were spilling all over the place.

But they were sure about one thing...

They felt fear.

The fear that caused them this tragedy.

"O-Oh my God, baby... please... I-I'm very sorry..." Jeongguk apologized with his heart on the line, arms bringing his boyfriend to a warm embrace.

"Don't fucking touch me, Gguk..." Taehyung seethed, pulling away but Jeongguk was more stubborn.

He took his boyfriend's weak punches and pulled him closer then proceeded to smother his baby's face with butterfly kisses.