The Watchers

Chapter 15

My heart is racing as I try to make my way down the hall quietly. It was hard to walk straight. Maybe I did have a little too much liquor. Claire knew I wouldnt be able to resist my favorite drink. Amazingly, I was able to navigate through the house and to the training field without waking anyone or breaking anything.

As I arrive, I can see Zack standing there facing away from me. I debate how I should approach him. The urge to just tackle him from behind was very strong. Would that be considered rape? Yeah it definitely would. I could just undress down to the lingerie and be standing here when he turns around. That sounds like a better and safer idea than the last.

"Earth to Lily!" I look up to see him now standing in front of me, waving his arms in front of my face. I was so lost in my thoughts that I had not seen or heard him approach.

"What took you so long? We need to get training finished." He says.

"Im sorry. Its a longer walk here than I remembered and the house is cluttered. Who the hell has so many dressers or whatever they are in the halls. Thats really a hazard you know." I ramble on and sway to the side a little. He places his arm out to steady me.

"Are you drunk?" he says while leaning closer to take a whiff of me. I must smell strong of alcohol because he pinches his nose and leans back. "Damn what did you do rob a liquor store?" he asks with a smile.

That is definitely not the reaction I had been expecting. I figured he would be angry to see that I had gotten drunk knowing that I had to train.

"Im not drunk!" I say defending myself. "Im just a little bittle tipsy."

"Sweet heart it looks like you passed tipsy about an hour ago." He says laughing.

"Nope. Scouts honor. Im good. Lets start training." I tell him. I really need to reevaluate my plan. Maybe I can just be straight with him and I can convince him to "knock my boots off" as Claire says.

"Im not training with you like that. I might hurt you." He quickly responds. There he is ruining my fun. He always has to think about my protection. Im a big girl and I can make my own decisions.

"Whats wrong big boy? Are you scared that itty bitty me might hurt you?" I say, trying to goad him.

"Nope. We are not training tonight. Thats final. Go back to your room and get some rest." He tells me.

Now I am getting really irritated with him telling me what to do. I turn to leave but then I think more about how bossy he is being and it makes me more angry. Ill show him. That is when I get the dumbest idea and turn around to see he is no longer facing me again. Before I have time to think about it I lunge at him.

He must have heard me coming because he turned towards me and tried to dodge but I caught him on the shoulder and we went tumbling down. As we fell, my shirt got caught on something and I could feel it rip. We landed with Zack on top of me. I looked up at his face and noticed a very odd look as he stared down at something below my neck. I could feel him tense up as he pulled himself off of me. I quickly look down to see what could have made him react like that and realize that my shirt had not just ripped a little, it had almost completely ripped down the front. The lingerie that I was wearing so confidently earlier was now very visible. I quickly grab my shirt and pull the top where I am no longer exposed.

"What the hell Lily? Why are you wearing something like that under your clothes?" he says breathily.

"WellIIt..It was for you." I manage to stumble out embarrassedly. I could feel my face warming up.

"Shit! Go to your room and get dressed and go to bed!" He practically shouts.

I flinch away because he sounds angrier than I have ever heard him before. Defeatedly I get up and start to slowly make my way back to my room. I feel something hit me in the back and turn to see a shirt by my feet.

"Put that on. You cant be walking around a house full of men naked." He says. He is now bare chested and I realize that he had taken his shirt off for me to wear.

I quickly grab the shirt and put it over my head and quickly retreat to the house. On my walk back many things run through my mind. I realize I cant go back to my room because if Claire wakes up and sees me like this she will be angry. Plus I just want to be alone right now. I decide to go to the library instead of my room.

I sit in the comfortable chair in the corner and try to read a book while listening to music on my phone. I hope that this will help take my mind off of the disastrous events on the training field. It really does not do much to help though because I keep thinking about what happened. The event keeps replaying in my mind over and over. I dont understand why he was so angry. I didnt really do anything to him. My shirt had torn and he saw my lingerie. Big deal. He taunts me and kissed me earlier today. He plays with my emotions and I have had enough.

I realize that if I keep thinking about everything I will never get to sleep so I try to focus on the song playing on my phone instead. That was a big mistake because it happened to be the song Creature by Jelly Roll. I have never heard the song before but something about it was captivating, especially the chorus:

There's a creature in my closet

I can hear him rumbling 'round

The demons screaming in the distance

Creates such a humbling sound

The monster that's outside my window

He's like family to me now

The things that people are afraid of

Never let me down

Listening to the song made me think of the words in the book that I had read. We all have a creature in our closet. Some just listen to it more than others. In my case though it fit well. I mean there is a prophecy that describes it and says that I will have to choose between the good and evil inside. Maybe that is why Zack keeps rejecting me. I am very undesirable because of who I am. Who would want someone like me?

I can feel the tears rolling down my face as I realize that no matter how I felt about Zack, it would never matter because he would never want me. I can feel arms wrap around me and I know they are Zacks. Instead of pulling away I snuggle deeper into his chest and let the tears flow.

"Shhh, angel dont cry. Im sorry if my words were harsh earlier. You just took me by surprise. You shouldnt be out walking like that." He tells me.

I look up into his eyes and say, "You dont have to lie to me. I know what I am and I dont deserve love." then quickly look down again.

"Why would you say something like that? Everyone deserves love Lily. Especially you." He says as he lifts my chin so that I am looking into his eyes again.

I push him away and angrily walk across the room. "You dont have to lie to me! Im tired of you trying to act as if Im something special. I know what I am now. Im an abomination that should never have been born. Why did you save me when I was born? Its clear that you are disgusted by what I am. I dont know why you continue this charade. Your face said it all on the training field." I almost shout.

Nothing else was said because he was in front of me with his lips on mine in an instant. I tried to struggle free but he just deepened the kiss. I was very quickly melting into him and forgot everything around me.

***Authors Note****

Hello anyone that may be reading. I just wanted to take a moment to let everyone know that I have no rights or affiliation with the song I mentioned: Creature by Jelly Roll. It is just a song that I found and love. He is an amazing artist and I thought it kind of fit how Lily was feeling. Id really recommend checking it out when you can. He has many amazing songs and I will put a link to the song in the beginning of this chapter as soon as I get a chance in case anyone wants to listen to it. Also important note about next chapter It will be an R rated chapter. I have never written a chapter like this so please be patient because it may not be great. Also if you dont like stuff like that then you may want to skip the next chapter. Thank you to the people that are reading and enjoy. If anyone has any tips or feedback please dont be shy to share with me.