Embracing the Uncertainties

Her

"Miss Lia, andito na po tayo" Gladly, Manong Lito saved me from my endless thoughts.

I was a bit nervous because Sav told me this is his studio. God why would I be nervous it's not like I did something wrong! I really should practice being a cool, calm and unbothered ex!

"Manong Lito, are you sure dito na 'yon?" I look around, the place is kinda bit off.. is this really his studio? Why does it looked like a plain white house?

Oh well, let's not judge the house by it's color and uh design?

Dalawang palapag na bahay at purong puti maliban sa pinto at bintana nitong kulay asul. Too plain and boring, like him. Uh well.. just kidding.

Ngunit hindi ko inakala na ganito kaganda pala sa loob, those beautiful shots of different models, wonderful sceneries... Napatigil ako at lumapit sa malaking litrato ng masayang pamilya sa gitna. Those lips that used to smile because of me, they looked really happy here..

"Can we start what we need to discuss?" I look at him. Shocked. He's now more manly, looked more mature. The smile, the smiling face and the guy that I loved, wala na iyon lahat ngayon, tila ba'y nakaharap ako sa isang estranghero. Ibang tao na siya, ibang iba na..

"Nope, I just want to check if you really are a good photographer, It's my favorite cousin's debut, dapat maganda at prepared lahat. Lalo na sa photographer, she treasure every picture, you know that."

I resume to look around to hide my eyes from him, eyes can't lie I'm afraid... na baka makita niya ang pait at sakit sa mga mata ko. God I'm so done with this years ago! Get your shits together LJ you're not affected at least don't show it right here right now!

Kung bakit ba naman kasi nauto niya si Ais noong kami pa eh! Ayan tuloy siya pa ang gusto ng pinsan ko as her photographer at bakit ba naman kasi ako nag presentang kakausap sa photographer!

Ngayon ko lang narealized this is her plan!! Kaya pala sinabi niyang ako ang maghanap ng best photographer ngunit kalaunan sinabing may nahanap na at i-check ko na lang! This is a trap and I am trapped. Gosh Aislinn!!

"I can show you some of my shots and if you're still not satisfied, you can find another" mariin akong pumikit.

"No!"

"...I mean no, not right now. I will send someone from the organizer. I need to go."

Dali dali akong naglakad. Ngunit bago pa ako makalabas.. It feels like I need to say this para hindi ako mukhang bitter.

"By the way, congrats for having a happy family."