forget him | kim doyoung

★ Forget You

Dear diary,

I must be the most disgusting person on Earth. Utterly horrible. I highly believe it. It has been three months, but I still keep doing it.

Why can't I just look away whenever Jihoon looks at me? Why must I stare into his pretty eyes that look like mini galaxies up close? Why must I daydream about him breaking up with Haneul and coming to me like some fanfiction?

Why am I so hopelessly infatuated with Park Jihoon when we don't even bond on a best friend level? Why do his simple stares and kind gestures always make me feel weak in the knees when he must feel nothing?

Why don't I have any answers to these questions? Is it because I can't find them, or maybe I am stopping myself because I don't want to know?

It's only going to be so long until I can keep this act up. So, please.

Please, Jihoon, have some sort of a flaw to make me not like you anymore.

I don't want to like you, Park Jihoon.

But if you look at me just like you look at Haneul, and treat me as nicely, I might not be able to stop myself from telling you how I really feel. And I don't want to do that.

So, please, be flawed, Park Jihoon. Because I want to unlike you.

I want to forget you.