The Towelhead | a poetry collection

Confusion| Who do I want to be?

Published June 23rd

I say I want to be a doctor,

But do I really ?

It's only an assumption

I think I'll like it

But what if I don't?

what if I study all these years

only to find out it's not the job for me

there's too much blood.

Too much viruses.

I don't have enough free time

I can't be there for my family

Like take them to games,

Play with them

Or go on spontaneous adventures

I'm always working

I can't make them lunch in the morning

What if I don't have enough free time to go out with my friends

To travel with them

To answer their random phone calls for my help

Because I'm in the surgery room helping someone else that needs help?

What if...

What if its not the job for me ?

And I was never meant to be doing that?

I was meant to be writing books, And poetry in my room,

Or future office

Selling them all over the world.

Be famous because of them,

Have people look up to me because of them,

and ask me for writing advice.

What if I was meant to be travelling the world,

And take pics for blogs and industries.

Share my experiences with the world,

And have a youtube channel to showcase them

What if that is what I am meant to do?

What if I realize it too late?

when I've studied for so long

I almost have grey hair,

And find it difficult to go back,

and start all over again?

As much as these are all things that preoccupy me,

I am a positive person

So What if it's the opposite of what I was afraid of.

What I being a doctor feels so right to me,

That I can't see myself doing anything else.

And I am also an author, a poet and a wanderlust,

I take a lot of trips with my friends, and family,

I have enough time for them,

I can be there for them,

And since my pay will be good,

I will be able to afford to take weeks off,

And forget about all the stress,

I will be able see the world like never before,

And feel sensations only a handful of people like me get to feel.

I'll share them with a lot of people,

I'll have a YouTube channel,

And people will tune in every time to watch me do fun things

And make a fool of myself as I try new things

What if it ends up working out just fine?

And I was worrying for no reason?

-S. Trig

Another one of my fears. We're getting bold out here.

I would never dare to tell anyone in my family, and not some of my friends. Not because they'll be mad, but because, what if I'm worrying for no reason. What if I have no reason to?

As I said, I'm a positive person.

I try to look at things under a beautiful light,

flip them till I can.

What's one of your fears?

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-S. Trig