Truths! Haikyuu Texting story

Chapter 41

Oikawa's POV:

I woke up feeling absolutely horrible. My head hurt, my eyes where puffy and red, my stomach screaming for food. God, food. When was the last time i ate..? Everything seemed like a blur, i felt dissociated, trapped in a tiny box made of negativity.

I saw Mattsun sitting near my bed on his phone, looks like he's texting someone.. My heart ached thinking it was Iwaizumi. Immediate thoughts coming to mind like Iwaizumi is probably having a laugh. He sent Mattsun here to judge me. He's probably showing off.
I knew none of these thoughts were accurate whatsoever, but it felt impossible to not think like that in this situation.

Maybe I should..

I picked up my phone.

This is a bad idea. He doesn't want to talk to me. He broke up with me all because I couldn't tell a fucking girl to go away. I'm a terrible boyfriend and a terrible being. A selfish jerk who's feeling sorry for himself after doing a shitty thing.

I just sat staring at my phone for a while until it lit up, revealing a message from the one and only..

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Iwa-chan
Oikawa..?

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He.. he want to talk? To have a go at me again?!

My eyes started to tear up as I read his messages. I had to re-read it over and over to make sure my eyes weren't deceiving me under the tears blurring my vision. But it was him for sure.

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Iwa-chan
Please
Please talk to me

I fucked up
bad

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The tears caused my vision to blur even more, blinding me so all i could work out were colouring splotches in front of me.

"Oikawa? Feeling any better?" Mattsun spoke up in a concerned voice. I know he isn't here to judge, to make a joke, but my mind couldn't comprehend the truth. I had already developed a sense of anger towards my friend over my own intrusive thoughts.

I shake my head roughly, "Can you.. can you give me some space?" I hardly whispered, it felt harsh, but maybe that was just my imagination.
He just nodded and stepped outside.

I continue to stare at the messages, new tears falling onto my phone screen. I hadn't even realised the tears had stopped falling until they started again. I was hardly aware of any of my surrounding to be honest.

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Iwa-chan
You don't need to reply

I just want you to listen.. okay?

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I nodded my head even though nobody could see me..

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Iwa-chan
..I over reacted

I was jealous

None of the things I said.. they weren't true okay?

Oikawa, I love you

And i'm a fucking dumbass for breaking up with you

And I don't expect you to forgive and forget...

I don't expect you to even talk to me again...

But... I'll never stop loving you...

Even if you don't love me back

I'll always be in love with you Toru

I was stupid

Please