An eternity went by until Ondre walked in. He just stood there and genuinely looked... pained.
Y/N: I want t-to be left a-alone
Ondreaz: Y/N, I'm here, always, if you need someone to talk to. It hurts seeing you like this
Y/N: I can deal with m-myself
Ondreaz: Y/N-
Y/N: Please!...
He stopped as I drew in sharp breaths
Y/N: Just g-go away... p-please...
It went silent as I pushed myself against the wall and stared at the floor praying to be left alone
Ondreaz: No
I looked at him. He shook his head as he sat infront of me.
Y/N: Ondre...
Ondreaz: No. I'm not leaving. No one should have to feel the way you do... And you sure as hell don't deserve it... I barried my face into my knees as I continued to cry/ He took my hand into his grip as he rubbed my legs. I looked at him as he shook his head and stared at the floor.
Ondreaz: It upsets me to know that it's always you... It's always you getting the worst of everything. It hurts and it's exhausting just watching you go through it
Everything went silent except for my quiet cries. Ondre eventually sat against the wall next to me as I continued to cry
Ondreaz: Just... breathe
I tried but I couldn't catch my breath
Y/N: I-I can't Ondre- It h-hurts too m-much
Without hesitation, he pulled me into his arms and held me tightly. After a few minutes, I managed to get myself under control. Ondre didn't try to pull away or even talk. He just held me and let me have the time I needed. He knew I needed it and all he wanted was to be there for me. And it gave me the time to gather my thoughts.
Y/N: It was easier... It was easier when I was alone. I didn't have to worry about anyone. I didn't have to worry about anyone hurting me and I didn't have to worry about me hurting anyone. All I had to worry about was me. And, yeah, it sucked but, it was easier. Being alone is easier. And as fucked up as it sounds-
A few tears were about to fall but I pushed them back
Y/N: I wish... I wish that I never met any of you. I'm sorry but meeting you guys made everything worse. I started drinking again, I almost got knocked up, my best friend almost died, I got abused both mentally and physically... twice, I ended up in the hospital, took too many trips to the hospital, my heart shattering into a million pieces millions of times, an on and off relationship that I'm not even sure was worth it... Everything was just better when It was me
I sighed and Ondre inhaled deeply
Ondreaz: I know... I know
Y/N: But, if none of that happened, I would still be doing drugs, I would still be at that shitty job at the mall, I wouldn't have become a model and singer, Liv wouldn't be pregnant, I would still end up in jail every once in a while, and I would probably be dead right now rotting in a grave
Ondreaz: Please... don't say that-
Y/N: AND, I wouldn't have so many people caring about me and I wouldn't feel like I had a family
He held me tighter as I took a deep breath
Y/N: We've all been through some shit but... you guys are all I've got. And believe it or not, you guys are the only family I've ever had. And still are and I would like to keep it that way. No matter the situation between Tony and I or anything like that. And by the end of the day, you guys are and will always be my family
Ondreaz: Always and forever?
I pushed myself closer to him. It was at this moment that I knew that I'm part of his world. He doesn't want to loose me and will never want to loose me. He already lost me once and he's going to make sure it doesn't happen again. He loves me so much that he dedicated his child to me. And when I left, I knew for a fact that it would hurt him most of all. Not just because he has a weak conscious. And if I'm being honest I do too but, it was also because he loved me the most. He loved me when I believed that no one could or even would. And if I'm being honest, I believe Tony wants nothing to do with me anymore after the shit I just said to him. Much less even love me anymore
Y/N: Always and forever, until the end... You know I love you... right?
He made a laugh that made it sound like a stupid question
Ondreaz: Of course... And I love you more
Y/N: That's literally impossible
Ondreaz: It's 100% possible
Y/N: I beg to differ
Ondreaz: No point in begging because you're wrong
Y/N: Ugh, why won't you let me love you more?
Ondreaz: Because I said. Deal with it
(Author's note: Why am I lowkey deadass shipping Y/N and Ondre right now....)
I smiled as I pushed myself off of him and stood up. I helped im up and he hugged me
Ondreaz: Do you feel better?
Y/N: Whenever you are there for me, always
I could already tell he had his adorable smile across his face
Y/N: Come on
We let go of eachother and walked back to my room. Before I opened the door, I wiped my face and looked at Ondre
Y/N: Am I good?
Ondreaz; They won't suspect a thing
I smiled and opened the door. Larri and Brady were practically wrestling on the floor as everyone laughed, watched, and Alex and Thomas were vlogging. Ondre and I crawled back into the bed and stretched out. Liv some how fell asleep with everyone literally acting like they live in a zoo. I rubbed my face and yawned
Ondreaz: Tired?
Y/N: Yeah, a little
Ondreaz: Do you want us to leave?
Y/N: No. I miss your stupid faces being idiots
Ondreaz: Ouch
I smirked as I looked around. Everyone was here except for Tony. I realized that I needed to talk to him
Y/N: Hey do you know where Tony is?
Ondreaz: He's in the room next to us
Y/N: Ok, I'm going to go talk to him and try to fix things. Thanks Ondre. Love you
Ondreaz: And I love you
I kissed him on the cheek and crawled over him. I left my room and went to the next room. I knocked and opened the door
Y/N: Tony?
He was sitting on the bed he quickly rolled down his sleeves. My heart shattered already knowing what he did...
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Rock Bottom (A Tony Lopez Story/Fanfiction)
FanfictionA story that began with you, a regular 18 year old working at the mall but that all changes ALOT when the Lopez Brothers let themselves into your life. It's one hell of a journey and one you weren't expecting. Better be ready.
