Self Destruction Is Such A Pretty Little Thing

Chapter 9

------ 1 week later------
Me and Jessica have been hanging out with the boys a lot since the night we met them at the club and it's safe to say my feelings for Ben have grown stronger every time. I hope he feels the same way, every time we are with the boys we just automatically end up by each other's side...oh who am I kidding....I'm just a fan/friend and that's all I will ever be. Danny also let me know about the little bet they had going on. In my opinion, I feel that it was harsh that they have betted on her but at the same time I hope Danny starts getting feelings for her as she has admitted to me she does in fact like Danny.

The boys wanted to hang out with me and Jessica today but Ben told me that he wanted some alone time with me because he said he wanted to talk, it was probably something like 'Im glad that we are friends' blah blah blah. If I'm honest I wanted to be more than friends with Ben. This past week I've seen a different side of him. He wasn't the sex driven rock and roll rock star he was made out to be,he showed a fun and caring side. I had just finished getting ready and was about to walk out of my bedroom, when I caught a glimpse of my arm in the mirror. Shit, I did not think it was that bad. Truth was I had be cutting a lot more as I've been having a lot more dreams and they are getting to me. Also I've just been seeing things...probably my imagination but oh well. I grabbed my leather jacket, slipped it on and made my way downstairs.

"Ben said to meet him at the park near the museum" Jessica said with a smile.

"Ok thanks Jess, I love you have fun with the boys!"

"I love you too belle, have fun with Ben" as she said that I walked out and made my way towards the park.

As I got closer to the park, I saw a picnic blanket, picnic basket and a guitar...but no Ben. Was I at the wrong park? Just as that thought popped into my head, a bunch of flowers were placed in front of my face. I turned to see Ben standing behind me with the cutest smile on his face.

"Ben, what's this?" I asked curiously, but I couldn't help but smile

"Just shut up, take the flowers and sit down I'll explain" I did as he said and he sat opposite me. He started pulling out foods such as sandwiches, fruits, salads, he also pulled out two wine glasses and a bottle of wine. What The Fuck was going on...(not that I'm complaining ;) ) we sat there eating and talking about random stuff such as writing the new album, Danny and Jessica and just random stuff like that. Ben finished his sandwich, brushed the crumbs off his hand and picked up his guitar.

"Er Ben what are you do.."

"Shhhh don't say anything" he started strumming the guitar, looked me dead in the eye and started singing 'someone somewhere'

Even though I'm on my own
I know I'm not alone
Cause I know there's someone, somewhere
Praying that I make it home
So here's one from the heart
My life right from the start
I need a home sweet home
To call my own
It was you
That told me I could do this
You put the music in my heart
And how you sang with the band in Memphis
It's hard just to be strong
Not knowing if I've done you proud
I like to imagine
You smile when you hear my songs
Even thought I'm on my own
I know I'm not alone
Cause I know there's someone, somewhere
Praying that I make it home
So here's one from the heart
My life right from the start
I need a home sweet home
To call my own
A letter home
And I know we don't speak much
And we both know I'm not keen to
But I think there's things I've left unsaid
I'm okay, don't worry
I wish I'd been a better kid
I'm trying to slow down
I'm sorry for letting you down
Even though I'm on my own
I know I'm not alone
Cause I know there's someone, somewhere
Praying that I make it home
So here's one from the heart
My life right from the start
I need a home sweet home
To call my own
Yeah!
You know it's just rock and roll
I know you're by my side through it all
My terror twin and I
Let's take over the world
Even though I'm on my own
I know I'm not alone
Cause I know there's someone, somewhere
Praying that I make it home
So here's one from the heart
My life right from the start
I need a home sweet home
To call my own
Even though I'm on my own
I know I'm not alone
Cause I know there's someone, somewhere
Praying that I make it home
So here's one from the heart
My life right from the start
I need a home sweet home
To call my own

I was in tears, my idol, my saviour, the man I have been crushing on for god knows how long has just sang to me. What is going on?!? I was speechless, I didn't no what to say at all. My heart was skipping beats. Just as I thought things couldn't get any better I seen Ben lean forward. I was freaking out but in a good way, what do I do?....what do I do?!?! Before I could make a decision Ben's lips crashed onto mine. The kiss was passionate, lovely and just pure....amazing. I didn't want to stop but I was running out of air so I pulled away.

"Ok so basically...I like you Annabelle, I think you are gorgeous, pretty, amazing and a wonderful person...and I know I have a reputation but with you it's different. You make me feel something I have never felt before....basically....what I'm trying to say is...will you go out with me?" I was absolutely gob smacked. Ben fucking Bruce just asked me out! Me?!? I thought I would be the one asking him out. I'm a fan for crying out loud. I knew my answer though.

"I urm....urm.." He looked at me with hope in his eyes.. "Yes" I replied with a smile. What on earth was I getting myself into.

Ok guys here's chapter nine, I wanted to skip it a little because I have a great idea for this story but I didn't want it to drag. I will update soon<3