Self Destruction Is Such A Pretty Little Thing

Chapter 30

-----2 weeks later------
Being with Ben made me feel like my life was finally coming together . Now and then on the tour I would cry because of the hate I got from some of his fans, and yes I did self harm from that. No one knows I have cause I've been wearing jackets, jumpers and long sleeved tops. I have also cried from how much I missed my parents. To be honest I feel a little bit guilty for enjoying life, I always feel like that. It hurts that they never saw me grow up to become a teenager, they never saw my 16th birthday and it hurts.

Currently, Ben was taking me around some shops because I was feeling down. He always knew how to cheer me up. We were in a jewellery shop and I had taken a liking into a diamond necklace. Ben saw me looking at it and he put his arm around me.

"Do you want it?" He asked. Oh hell no, there was no way he was going to buy that for me. It costs £795.00.

"Nah I was just looking" I said whilst walking away. We walked into Starbucks, Ben told me to go sit down while he ordered . I got a strawberry frappuccino with ginger and chocolate muffin, Ben ordered a mocha cookie crumble frappuccino and a classic blueberry muffin. As we were sat eating and drinking, three girls walked over to us.

"Ben, can we get a photo with you please?" One of them asked.

"Urm yeah sure, Annabelle will you tak the picture?" Ben asked

"Yeah sure" I said whilst standing up. The girl handed me the camera and all three of them walked over to Ben. He put his arm around two of the girls. I'm going to admit I was jealous. I took the picture and handed the girl her camera back. They thanked Ben and went to walk away. The tallest one gave me a glare.

"Ben can do so much better!" Was the words that came from her mouth, and I felt hurt. Ben didn't hear it though, so I didn't want into ruin our day out. As I went to sit down the last girl bent down and whispered in my ear.

"For the record I think you are pretty and that Ben is lucky to have you" before I could reply, she walked off back to her friends. I just smiled and me and Ben went back to what we was doing.

"Fuck you James!" Was all we heard when we walked back onto the tour buss. Me and Ben gave each other a confused look and walked into the main area of the buss to see Danny James Sam and Jessica laughing, whilst Cameron was pulling up his jeans.

"What's going on?" Ben asked

"James thought it would be funny to pull Cams jeans down but his boxers came down with them" Sam said in between laughs. I felt bad so I went over to Cam and gave him a hug.

"You are all bully's" I said whilst sticking my tongue out at them.

"Yeah!" Cameron said in the most childish way ever and also sticking his tongue out. Causing all of us to burst out laughing. We were all like a little family and I loved it.

"Can we all just stay in and have a movie night tonight" Jessica suggested.

"I'm up for that!" I agreed

"You would be wouldn't you!" Danny said. "Sorry Hun but I'm off out, Ben u coming?" Ben looked at me and I just shrugged. Ben and James agreed to go out with Danny, whereas Sam and Cameron wasn't up for it.

Sam, me, Jessica and Cameron were all cuddle up on the sofa watching paranormal activity. I get scared easily so I jumped at every scene, the other didn't scare too easily. The scary music in the background came on and I knew something was going to happen and I was right. A girl face came right up to the screen and at the same time the tour buss door burst open and then light turned on. Me, Sam, Cameron and Jessica all let out a high pitched scream. Danny and James were on the floor but Ben stormed right through the buss and went to the back. After we had all calmed down, I asked Danny what was wrong with Ben.

"I think you need to go ask him for yourself Annabelle" at this point I was worried. I made my way to the back of the buss and walked through the door.

"Ben?" He was sat there, head in his hands. When he heard me call his name her looked up and rushed straight over to me. He hugged me and then placed his hands on each side of my face.

"Belle I'm so sorry, I'm so so fucking sorry. Just know that I love you so much!" I was confused, what the fuck was going on?!

"Ben what's happened?" He wouldn't give me an answer so I stormed out.

"Danny what did Ben do?" Danny took a deep breathe and then told me.

"He fucked the girl that looks exactly like you" I was in complete shock. I looked at James.

"It's true, I'm sorry Annabelle!" I looked at Sam,Jessica an Cameron who all had look of shock and disbelief on their faces. Just then we heard a door slam.

We all turned our heads and saw Ben standing there.

Here's another chapter :)<3