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Writing while crying is so difficult. I don't know who i am now. I m feeling sad. Crying while watching finding nemo. Nemo is giving me a company in crying time. I was thinking sad moments from last few days and today everything happened. Today's day is my worst day. I am feeling very frustrating. Bcoz of online classes and many other things like we females are only for doing work, obeying orders and all. Why not appreciation. Me and brother had a big fight today like my frustration overtake my mind. I was not in my good state. Shouting and all. Mother came and took me downstairs. I shouted at her that i want to leave alone. I don't like here. Everything is suffocating here. I want to cry loudly. And shout. Mother explained me that girls should always be in limit bcoz in this world boys name won't be taken in a wrong way only girls name will come. She told me that how intelligent my cousins are happily married and all. I should not shout and all. She prays that i would also settle happily with my partner. But now i think marriage is like a another cage. I dont believe in this shit. It gives more pain. Ya Allah please make me strong. Make me fearless please. I beg you. My nani and nana are sick. They both are very good. Ya Allah please make them healthy. Help them. Look over them. Please I beg you. I beg you to make my morning a new me. Give me strength ya Allah. Forgive me for my sins. Help me Ya Allah🙏.

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