BTS Sickfics

31. Jimin: It Went Too Far

Namjoon's POV

To say we haven't noticed would be a lie, I of all people know I have noticed. He is acting different and he doesn't really talk to us, his smile is almost nonexistent. I don't know what caused it but it happened and it happened fast.

"Namjoon have you been listening to me?" Yoongi asked. I shake my head a little and I feel my cheeks get red from embarrassment.

"No sorry hyung, I just can't stop thinking about him, I want to know what happened, I thought we agreed that none of us would do this after the last time." I answer and I see his look turn to a saddened frown.

"I know Namjoon, but promise me you aren't blaming yourself." Yoongi says and I feel tears well up in my eyes.

""Hyung, I am the leader and his hyung, I can't help but think about how long it took me to notice something was wrong and now he won't talk to us." I tell him as I started to shed the welling tears.

"Baby it's not any of our faults, we all see Jimin struggling, but he doesn't want our help." Yoongi tells me, pulling me into a hug.

"I know hyung, but we need to do something before it gets too bad, and then it is too late." I tell him honestly and I feel him nod his head. I look up and see everyone else looking at me with tears in their eyes. Just as I go to say something Jimin walks down the stairs and the sight of him is sad and terrifying at the same time. He is so skinny that his clothes are baggy but if you look at his arms you can see how thin he is getting, he is sickly pale and has deep bags under his eyes and to top it all off he is shaking like a leaf and his eyes have lost their sparkle.

"Hey Jiminie, what are you up to?" Hoseok asks and I hear the wavering in his voice as he tries to prevent himself from crying.

"I am going to the studio to practice some more, I am not doing the dances well enough." Jimin answers and that is the most we have heard out of him in a week. His face drops when he thinks about his dancing and I can't help but let some tears shed at the fact that he is feeling this way about himself.

"Jiminie baby, who told you that?" Yoongi asks him, trying to grab Jimin's hand. Jimin pulls his hand away and starts walking towards the door.

"No one told me that, it's not hard to notice the truth, I am not dancing well and I never have, I can't sing and I am gaining too much weight again, and I should stop pretending to be cute cause I am not. I am annoying and it's not cute. It's ugly." Jimin confesses and I could hear that he is crying.

"Jimin... Please." I plead not knowing what to say, I see Jimin starting to walk away again when I see him stumble and almost lose his balance.

"Jiminie are you alright?" Hoseok asks, walking towards him, and before Hoseok could get close enough Jimin crumpled to the floor.

Hoseok's POV

I rushed to his side and I pulled him into my lap and I then realized how bad he has gotten. I am not sure when the last time he ate or slept was but this is not good. His breathing is off and you can tell that his body is so weak that it is struggling to maintain itself.

"Call an ambulance." I call out and see Jin with his phone already in his hand. I am rocking Jimin back and forth and I see everyone crying and I turn to see Taehyung frantically scrolling through something on Jimin's phone. Tears start to fall down Taehyung's face more rapidly and his breathing becomes uneven. Yoongi noticed and walked to him pulling Jimin's phone out of his hand and pulling him into his side trying to stop the panic attack.

"Hyung what happened, what did you find?" Jungkook asked through his tears, he was struggling because being the youngest he doesn't like to see any of us hurt.

"We would have never known and we would have never seen this and it is bad, why do people do this?" Taehyung rambled and I look to Yoongi for clarification and I see the confusion on everyone else's faces. Yoongi slowly opens Jimin's phone punching in the password and I see his face fall as he scrolls up.

"Guys Tae is right, it's bad, worse than the last time." He tells us. "Someone has anonymously started messaging Jimin and they are saying all of the stuff that Jimin said and more, they have him convinced that he is not good enough for anything, and the first message Jimin received was over a month and a half ago." He explains and whatever he is reading is making him start reacting like Taehyung.

"Yoongi hyung, what is it?" I ask when I see Yoongi just about to drop Jimin's phone and cry harder.

"This person has tried to convince him suicide was the only way out mutiple times, but Jimin refused ever time and they just keep getting nastier and saying awful things." Yoongi explains and by the time he finishes what he is saying Jin is letting paramedics into our dorm and in the blink of an eye Jimin is pulled from me and him, Jin, and Namjoon are gone and Yoongi is trying to get the rest of us into the car.

Jimin's POV

I feel light and then I start to wake up from what seems like a long sleep and I feel well rested but also unwell at the same time. I open my eyes and they are blurry at first so I blink a few times and I see that I am in a hospital room and all of BTS are sleeping in chairs around my bed except for Namjoon who is pacing at the foot of the bed not realizing I am awake. I screwed up. I told myself I wouldn't let it go too far and that I wouldn't put them through this again and here I am.

"Hyung?" I call out and I hear how weak and quiet my voice is and I am surprised when Namjoon turns around having heard me.

"Jiminie, you're awake, finally how are you feeling?" He asks while running to my side and I see the other start to slowly stir.

"I am not feeling great but I can manage, how long was I out?" I ask, still hearing the weakness of my voice.

"3 days." Yoongi says as he stands up and grabs my hand. "You had us terrified, we thought we had lost you and we almost did, why did you tell us what was going on?" I shake my head.

"I didn't think it would go this far, I promised myself not to let it and I didnt want to burden you guys." I tell them and Hoseok just sighs.

"You need to tell us when something is bothering you so we can help you, I am the one who held you weak and tiny body when you collapsed, I was so afraid I was going to lose you right then and there." Hoseok confesses and the tears run down his face.

"I am so sorry guys, I know I promised the last time it wouldn't happen again, by this time I will make sure that I let you know if something is going on." I tell them and they nod.

"I know you just woke up but the doctor wants you to eat something and then rest, when was the last time you ate?" Namjoon asks and I shrug.

"I would eat and then force myself to throw it up." I confess and they hand me a tray that has a sandwich and an apple on it.

"Please eat it for us?" Taehyung says and I nod, I pick up half of the sandwich and struggle putting it to my mouth and I take a small bite and feel sick. I struggled through the food and it took me about an hour and a half to eat it all and then I fell asleep and I know that I will always have someone on my side and that they will always try to protect me.