•𝖓𝖈𝖙 𝖔𝖓𝖊𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖙𝖘•

•𝗹𝗶𝗲𝘀•

[nomin oneshot]

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" i'm on a roller-coaster of emotion
i'm trapped feeling dizzy and off balance "

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if jaemin could have a dollar for every time he's lied, he would be a billionaire.

"i'm fine" is a piece of shit statement.

and the opposite of it can't even describe what he feels.

shit, jaemin doesn't know how he feels himself!

just walking through the halls at school, he is already wondering if the way his feet move is weird.

simply letting someone worry about him is hard, not because he can take care of himself, no.

it's because jaemin feels as if he doesn't deserve to take up someone else's time and attention.

people can step all over him, and he would let them.

in his mind, it's all big talk about beating the shit out of anyone who mistreats him.

but in reality, jaemin feels valuable as a doormat for other people.

no he doesn't.

he feels like a piece of trash.

but that's how it's been for so long, that he's gotten used to it.

once trash, always trash.

especially to lee jeno!

the one who put him in this mindset!

when they first started dating, it was all rainbows and sunshine.

until jeno slowly started to... change?

saying shit like, "you're a real stress reliever."

jaemin was never considered in anything they did.

it was jeno this and jeno that.

and jaemin thought like he was making jeno feel loved that way.

but he was just a fucking toy.

jeno was a asshole, who only used the younger for his own enjoyment.

jeno took all his firsts.

first kiss. first boyfriend. first time. first love.

and now he's alone.

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wandering aimlessly around town at the witching hour, jaemin spotted a bridge.

gripping the railing, the boy stared up at the stars.

he felt them illuminating his glossy eyes.

peace.

what he longs for.

no more wondering.

why? when? where? how?

it was finally time.

just to let go.

stop suffering.

peace.

he jumped.

☁️