ALEX POV
after talking to grayson last night i just decided to call it a night and go to bed. i had realized a lot, and needed to just sleep on it.
the only issue was i couldn't exactly get to the sleeping part. my mind ran through the last three and half months. all the long days i spent with ethan and the times we went out for dinner or ice cream.
all the times we would have late night talks, and even before when all we did was discuss how to kill blaine.
when we first met.
finally a few hours later my mind finally shut off and i fell asleep.
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i felt myself wake up and those few seconds of pure bliss felt great. until my brain flooded with memories of last night.
and my heart exploded with feelings again. damn does this shit just stay like this? forever?
oh yeah. awesome. loving it here.
i have feelings for ethan and not only do i know, but grayson now knows of this as well. what am i supposed to do now? i cant just walk up to ethan and say, "hey e, i like you like a fuck ton. anyway, have a nice day." like....?
no♥️
i sit up and put my face in my hands. and just sit there rubbing my face.
then it hit me.
wait. wait a minute. i didn't even consider the fact that ethan most likely doesn't even see me that way. i didn't even think about that. fuck.
this is stupid. i'm stupid. he's like my best friend...there is like absolutely no way this is gonna work.
and to make things 100% worse than they already are, ive never had feelings for someone before. sure i kissed people at parties, hooked up with guys, and i had other people like me, but i, myself have never had feelings for someone until now.
not real feelings at least.
i groan in frustration and despite my general distaste in getting out of bed, i decide to get up. i brush my teeth and then my hair, wash my face, and get dressed.
i slowly walk down the stairs still feeling pretty sleepy. but when i reached the end of the stairs i was surely awoken. and my heart FLEW out of my ass.
"what the fuck" i say backing up.
"long time no see alex." his eerie voice spoke making my skin crawl.
i slightly glance up the stairs at ethans door.
"he's not home sweetheart." his voice speaks stepping closer to me. i step back to try to keep as much distance as possible.
"shit" i say under my breath. i have no weapons, and no one here to help me. "what do you want blaine?" i ask.
"oh nothing much......just your untimely demise, and your little gang's as well." he steps closer to me, making me step back again.
bad move.
two men must've suck upstairs while i was asleep or they literally have some kind of super powers of invisibility, because they somehow got behind me and grabbed me.
yep. my time to die i guess.
the last thing i heard was blaines laughter before a cloth was placed over my nose and mouth.
and then everything went black.
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A/N: i really don't like blaine🤢VOTE PLEASE
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Romanceshe wanted to leave. but that comes at a cost of knowing too much. he promised to protect her. but will it be enough? started: 5/23/20 ended: 1/26/21