I felt alone today. I've been feeling alone for a long time now. It's not like i lack friends, i have the most adorable people surrounding me, but sometimes i feel like i need someone to be constantly talking to me. I want-
No. People did approach me today, they did ask me how my scholarship exam went, or what i was doing, dipss tried to get me to come outside with her, i was the one who refused. I miss you S, i miss you more than my words can convey. I used to prioritize you over everyone i knew, and i, i don't know how to handle this hurt. You were my world, are my world, but i'm not dumb and i wasn't born yesterday. I see through your lies. everything you've told me ever since march, seems like a lie. I keep on questioning my worth to you, was i worth your time? your efforts? you love? your attention? you presence? and so far, i am so lost. my mind keeps on coming up with theories as to why you're not talking, i didn't even want to write on you again, because i know that this way i'll go to bed sad, but when my fingers touched the keyboard, and i opened the tab, all i knew was you.
is this the pain of losing a best friend? one day you'll find someone to replace me. what was i to you? a time pass? an object? i want to know. but you won't respond.
YOU ARE READING
thoughts.
Non-Fiction❝let's overthink together, darling❞ (a gift for you in first part) what my heart wants to say what my brain conveys what my fingers type what your eyes read (the image on the cover was taken by me)
