Her Beautiful Mistake

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Akala ko pag gusto ko pwede kung makuha agad anytime but Gideon Archer fuero?.isa siya 𝚜a patunay na hindi ko alam kung papaano ko mahuli yung puso niya. Before I'm always telling myself when the first time i saw him that he should be the man that i would be marry.

Pero paano kung hindi pala ako yung babaeng mahal niya?.At kahit kasal siya sakin ay hindi parin iyon sapat para mahalin ako ng tuluyan.

Two lines of pregnancy test is very visible positive. Nanlabo ang paningin ko sa luhang dunadaloy sa mga mata. Paano ko sasabihin sa kanya ito? Ayaw niya na sakin for sure ayaw din niya sa baby.

"Why can't you just set me free huh?"

My stomach hurt a bit but today i will endure the pain. Parang hiniwa ang puso ko sa sinabi niya. But i know i was wrong naman to kept a man who doesn't even love me. Also i force him to marry me even he was busy loving someone else.

"A-alis nalang muna ako dito kung ayaw mo akong makita- "

Ofcourse I'm trying an alibi para sana wag pag-usapan yung bagay na ito kasi I'm scared. I'm scared if i will lose him ito yung araw na kinatatakutan ko umayaw siya at ihiling yung palayain siya sa mga kamay ko. Imagine how hurtful it is when the person you dream about having him everyday asking for his freedom.

His cold and tired stare was giving me a freezing bath. I mean what's new? he didn't even bother to look at me he is the heartless person I've ever met but i do love him still.

"Annulment flain , that's what i really need"

I can't hold back my tears sobrang sakit. I was cheering up myself kalma lang i can do it palayain ang tao na minsan hindi naman naging sakin.

"You wanted to be free badly huh."

He glanced at me ni-walang halong awa blangko lang. Not also have a love emotions despite everything i brought my hands in his cheeks. Alam ko nagulat siya doon nakita ko pagtaas baba ng dibdib niya.

I wiped the tears that keep on streaming down i just thought na ganyan ba kasakit iyong manatili sa tabi ko?.

"Are you finally going to be happy?" I asked.

He just nodded and my tears falling from my face just like how a frickin broken dam. Sobrang sakit eh parang sinasaksak iyong dibdib ko sa sobrang sakit.

"Let me go please , I've caused you so much pain"

I smiled , my mind speaks louder than my sobs kasi kahit sakit lang ang dulot nito sakin masaya parin ako. Atleast kahit papano may nararamdaman siya sakin iyon nga lang galit at puot lang. Gusto kong sabihin lahat sa kanya but I'm tired not physically but emotionally.

" I don't need to set you free kasi alam ko when we stepped naman into that church alam kong hindi ka naman talaga sakin but atleast i tried.--

"I'm letting you go and I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for loving you too much. But please can you do me a favor? If you stepped out in this house just please keep going don't look back. Just be happy with her and when the right time comes i hope you choose the right path"

I can't even recognize my own voice I'm shaking and i feel my stomach hurt sobrang sakit. When i felt his warm hug kumalma ako sana ganito nalang sana kame nalang ni baby piliin niya.Kumalma ako parang ang safe sa mismong bisig niya. I know na this is the last time na we can hug him so i hugged him even more.

"Thank you for everything you've done to my life. Sana matagpuan mo iyong lalaki na mamahalin ka ng buo gaya ng pagmamahal na binibigay mo sakin."

I was crying so loud and Gideon's started to let go my body he turned his back at me and left. Ang hirap pala pag ganito ang hirap bitawan kapag mahal na mahal mo pa. But you know what worse when someone saying goodbye? You're not able to say goodbye to that person.

I want him to be happy with someone else rather than seeing him unhappy with me. I'm sorry baby daddy's right naman diba? May dadating na bubuo ulit sakin and that's you my little angel.

Hiding you from all the pain and I'm praying that i choose a right path with you baby.