Her Beautiful Mistake

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫.6

She's what?

"Flain hija"

I heard manang shouting outside my room  the sun is facing my room pictures are everywhere happy poses and sadly truth  , I don't know kong paano ako nanatili sa ganitong set up nag mahal lang naman ako it's really that hard to fall back inlove with me? I stood up at inabot ang front door.

I saw manang holding some food okay great i didn't even thinking about how hungry i am.

"Goodmorning po, sa baba nalang manang pwede? Doon nalang po ako kakain"

"Sige hija sumunod kana agad para makakain kana"

"Si Gideon po?-"

"Alam mo hija? Wala naman pake ang asawa mo sayo eh , pwede ba isipin mo sarili mo wag puro siya "

Manang cut me out at mabilis na umalis napabuntong hininga nalang ako she's right but still stab my chest , pinilig ko nalang ulo ko at mabilis na tinungo ang kwarto namin ni gideon naka bukas yun and i found him smiling , he was busy chatting with someone kaya hindi niya namalayan na pumasok ako.

Tinungo ko nalang ang closet at mabilis kumuha ng maisusuot hindi niya ako pinapansin I don't know maybe he was really busy with something either someone , cold water flowing through my body no words can express how hurtful things are going out for me halos di ko na malamayan na lumulha na pala ako I'm strong right? Maybe ignoring me was his best option.

Sino ba naman ako? I'm just a wife hindi niya naman mahal never minahal  it's crazy na he agreed on the idea na it's okay na saktan ako pake niya kong asawa ako , total naman ginusto ko ito diba panindigan ko after all ginusto ko ito ako lang ang may gusto sa marriage life maybe hindi pa siya ready maybe---

"Nex time lock the door"

Napatalon ako na marinig boses niya kinuha niya ang toothpaste at nilagay sa toothbrush niya , okay great hindi ko pala naharang ng shower curtain so kitang kita niya buong katawan ko sa salamin , pinatay ko agas iyong shower at mabilos na hinablot ang towel he's done at mabilis na tinignan katawa ko.

"Bibi-his n-a a-ko"

" Yeah right, are you afraid na may gagawin ako? "

"Hindi naman sa ganun gideon-"

"Alam mo masarap kana man eh "

Lumapit siya sakin kaya mas hinigpitan ko ang kapit sa towel na nakaharang sa hubad kong katawan.

"Sweet juices, loud moans , ang sarap mo sa kama you're good in bed but ain't good in my fucking life"

When i heard those words kusang tumulo ang luha sa mata ko i know na ganito eh my body isn't responding if gusto niya akong ikama mararamdaman ko iyon , tama pala ako of  if he don't even have something to say that makes sense bakit hindi nalang siya tumahimik?.

Can't stop my tears from falling umalis siya sa harap ko without knowing na nasasaktan niya na ako, words cut deeper para naman akong basahan na pagkatapos pagsawaan itatapon nalang , siguro ganon ako like pang kama lang talaga it's funny how he use those words towards me  I'm his wife but the way he treats me kabaliktaran.

Inayos ko ang sarili at nag ayos na para bumama caring those hurtful words he say about me immune na ako sa sakit eh dapat masanay na ako I'm flain i am strong i am more than that bitch he knew.

Pagbaba ko i saw gideon with his plates busy parin siya sa phone niya i wonder who it was-or should i say same girl ?.

"Kain kana hija ininit ko ulit"