I F O N L Y
You look at everyone but me.
You laugh and make jokes with the ones around you but me.
You give them your sweet smile.
I wish you would give me that smile once again, but your eyes slide over to the next person.
I act as if I'm okay with it.
As if you failing to acknowledging me wasn't anything.
But it hurts.
It really. Really. Fuckin. hurts.
The rejection that you've given me without knowing.
Despite that, my heart races while your around.
My smiles are brighter.
My laughter is louder.
I feel better when I'm with you.
If only you knew that.
If only you knew.
If only you knew how much you were to me.
If only you knew the feeling I get when my phone lights up with your message.
If only you knew how late I stayed up thinking of you.
If only you knew how much times I've tried to get you out of my head.
Out of my heart.
If only you knew.
If only.
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The ramblings of a teenage girl
Poetry- T H E F R I E N D - Was it because you saw my feelings for you? Was it because I was too open with you? Was I too loud? Or too quiet. Did I laugh too much? Or not enough. - I F O N L Y - I act as if I'm okay with it. As if you failing to acknow...