Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
i sighed rubbing my eyes. i couldn't sleep, me and vante hadn't talked since i got in that fight almost a week ago. usually we'd be on facetime or he'd call before i went to sleep but i choose to ignore him and then ultimately block him. i was now regretting that decision because not only did i miss him dearly but i hadn't been able to sleep.
putting my pride to side i unlocked my phone calling him. impatiently waiting for him to answer i sucked in a harsh breath once i heard his raspy voice on the other end.
"hello?"
"wassup nez?"
"c-can you come out?" i softly smacked my head because of my stutter
"i'm on my way" he told me before i heard his keys jiggle and he hung up
15 minutes later i got a text from him telling me to unlock the door, quickly getting out of bed i rushed down the stairs and quietly unlocked the door. i jumped on him wrapping my arms and legs around him burying my face in his neck.
"i need to talk to you" i mumbled jumping down from him
we walked to my room and it was a awkward silence until i spoke up.
"i'm sorry for ignoring and blocking you i acted out of emotion and didn't stop to think my decision through, i was really upset and confused by the whole altercation and i took that out on you" i played with my fingers avoiding all eye contact
"come're" he told me
i shook my head slightly staying by my closet. nervous was an understatement i was damn near shaking in my boots, picture a 6'0 lanky built nigga just staring at you... exactly.
"nefertiti.."
i finally looked at him trying to blink my tears away. i'm an emotional person so what but when you avoid your bestfriend and boyfriend all in one sometimes the neglected emotions show. i rarely cried and when i did i was really hurt or it was a cry for help i unfortunately lived by the mindset of just thug it out, it definitely takes a toll on my mental health but i don't know how to explain my feelings.
"why you teary eyed?" he grabbed my hands pulling me onto his lap
i shrugged wiping the tear that fell staring at my stuffed animal. i really was trying to explain my feelings in words but nothing came to mind.
"mama look at me" he turned my head so that i was looking at him
"why you upset love?"
"i don't know" i said softly
"yes you do, you know what you're feeling and why you're feeling like that"
ugh he sounds like my momma
i paused taking a deep breath to gather all my thoughts and feelings. it was more than just the fight or us not talking it was everything flowing out at once all the pain and pent up anger was just flowing through me and it needed to be released. i was perfect but no human being is i'm bound to make mistakes i'm a sixteen year old thats just life but for some reason i felt like a failure. after a lengthy and tear filled conversation i laid on his chest and was slowly falling asleep.
"butta?"
"hmmm?"
"can you promise me something"
"mmhm" i nodded my head
"promise me that whenever you feel like this you talk to me before it's too late" he held his pinky out
"i promise" i latched my pinky around his before i closed my eyes
"vante.."
"wassup"
"i uhm nevermind" i shook my head
now bitch if you don't tell this nigga you love him damnit stop being a chicken.
"nah say what you were going to say"
"no it's okay it can wait"
"inez.." he looked down at me with his beautiful brown orbs making my breath hitch and my heart flutter
"i uh, i love you" i finally said
"huh ain't hear you can you repeat that?" he smirked making me roll my eyes and mug him
i sat up clearing my throat
"i love you devante dominique lowe" i said truthfully
"i love you too inez nefertiti derrick"
grabbing my neck he pulled me down into a kiss, the kind that was filled with adoration and lust. i was no longer sleepy and wide awake, i felt like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and i felt great. pulling away i smiled slightly before rolling over.
"boy move all up on me" i looked down at vante who was now laying on my stomach
"girl shut up and take yo ass to sleep"
and you know what i did take my ass to sleep not because he told me too but because i wanted too.
————————————————
the first i love you's omg i don't remember if miah and angel said it or not but anywho
