Choices

One step forward Two steps back

The pavement heated up as noon approached, the scorching sun a stark contrast to the cool weather inside Donghyuck's house which was cold enough for him to wear a sweatshirt in mid July. Saturdays were usually a relaxing time for him because none of his family were home during the day time. But today was definitely much more stressful than he had anticipated it to be. Donghyuck had promised Mark that he would end things with Jaemin but even as he waited with bated breath with a half prepared speech in his head he felt a pit at the bottom of his stomach grow. He knew he had to do it, he just didn't know how to.

Donghyuck kept pacing around the living room as he waited for a knock on the front door. While he was fidgeting with his fingers he realized how it had almost become a ritual for them to meet every week at his house cuddled in front of the sofa watching a new movie or binging a show and it was the one day of the week he always looked forward to. Donghyuck took in a deep breath and shook his head trying to calm his nerves.

His attention was quickly diverted when he heard steps on the other side of the door. He rushed over to the entrance and opened the door to reveal Jaemin with his hand in a fist suspended in front of him. He smiled his usual bright smile as he stepped closer to Donghyuck and placed a small peck on his lip. Jaemin smelled like cherries and coke and everything about him screamed comfort.

Every inch of Donghyuck wanted to go in for another kiss but he stopped himself and instead shut the door as he watched Jaemin walk over to the couch in the middle of the room. Donghyuck didn't know why but he could already feel a smile creeping up his face when he saw Jaemin excitedly talk about his day. He watched as Jaemin unzipped his hoodie and pulled out a pack of chips from within showing it off to Donghyuck as if it was a prize and then hugging it closer.

"I thought we could be nostalgic today" Jaemin said pulling a pack of pocky sticks from his back pocket the smile on his face never once faltering.

"How is this nostalgic I eat it every day" Donghyuck said settling down on the couch in front of him with both of his feet up.

"First of all that's super unhealthy and second of all... Sleepovers" Jaemin uttered reaching in his front pocket to pull out another snack and throwing all of it on Donghyuck's lap.

"How many did you bring?" Donghyuck asked trying to sound annoyed but the smile on his face only grew bigger.

"I have more in the car" Jaemin bluntly stated pointing towards where his car was parked right outside the house.

"Do you want me to go get it?" he asked taking of his hoodie completely.

"Are you really asking me that question?" Is all Donghyuck says giving him an uninterested look.

"I'll be right back"

Donghyuck followed Jaemin with his eyes thinking back to their pre adolescent times when they used to have sleepovers almost all the time. It was an unsaid rule among them that no matter whose house it took place in, the other would be responsible for sneaking in snacks. They would spent the entire night trying to eat all of it and then end up feeling sick but at the time the satisfaction derived from it overpowered the discomfort.

It was truly baffling just how much everything had changed and not all for the better. Things were so much less complicated back then and he could feel himself craving that simplicity yet knowing it's something that he could never hope to achieve again. Jaemin walked in once again closing the front door with his feet with a plastic bag full of old school snacks in his hand, including some he hadn't seen in a long time or had forgotten the taste of.

"You know what's really weird?" Jaemin said putting down the bag beside the coffee table and lying down on the couch with his head on Donghyuck's lap.

"What?"

"I remember a lot of moments we spent together but I still for the life of me I can't remember how we met." Jaemin uttered looking up at Donghyuck.

"Not at all?" Donghyuck asked running his hand through the blonde strands of hair that was spread on his lap.

"Well I mean I know we met when we were 8, I know we met in school but the what the hell did we say to each other the first time we talked what exactly did I say that made you go hey fuck the other kids I wanna be friends with this dude" Jaemin spoke up opening the bag of chips which was on the ground near the legs of the couch while Donghyuck tried to stifle a laugh.

"Well I think it was during the break. You came and sat on the table I was sitting on probably because you thought I was lonely or something. I don't know what you said or what happened next but we were friends." Donghyuck said leaning back on his hand and heaving a sigh as he recalled their time spent together before Jaemin left the country.

"I mean you still are a child" Donghyuck added pinching Jaemin's cheek to which he just rolled his eyes.

Jaemin got up from his position and sat down in front of the other, mirroring his posture. He carefully takes a hold of Donghyuck's hand and presses a kiss on it watching a tint of red splash across his face. It always made him happy to see the brunette flustered since it rarely ever happened.

Donghyuck just stared at him as he kept talking. In all honesty he couldn't comprehend half the things he said but seeing him happy made him happy so he would always nod his head and pretend to understand. His eyes momentarily shifted towards a photo frame behind Jaemin on the side table. It was a family portrait they took during their vacation this year. His heart started thumping in his chest again as Mark's face drifted through his mind. Jaemin was currently sitting right in front of Donghyuck barely inches apart. He was playing with Donghyuck's fingers as he went on about something his mom had said that morning.

Looking at the slight smile on his face and his beautiful eyes that would become wide every time he was too engrossed into something Donghyuck no longer had the heart to tell Jaemin about Mark or the fact that he was now technically in a relationship with two people. The longer he looked at their intertwined hands the more it dawned on him just how much he would be hurting not only him but Mark as well if he didn't make a decision or even if he did.

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Only the muffled sound of rain falling on the surface of their house could be heard now. It wasn't hot but the rain did bring a lot of humidity which Donghyuck absolutely hated. He removed the latex gloves from his hands and put them beside the sink, switching off the lights in the kitchen. He then proceeded to switch off the rest of the lights that were on in the house when he heard a staggered knock on his door. He was about to ignore the sound thinking it might have been something falling over outside when he heard it again this time a little louder. He quickly retraced his steps making his way towards the front door without bothering to switch the lights back on again since the lights on the porch outside were always on. Donghyuck mentally cursed whoever was on the other side of the door for disturbing them so close to midnight as he undid the lock and swung the door open and eyed the drenched figure in front of him.

"Mark-"

A/N:

I don't really have excuse tbh I'm just sorry I had zero inspiration to write but since I want to finish it bcs I also have a sequel in mind I have taken an oath to finish it within this month so stick around for that. Also let me know about who do you ship more now Markhyuck or Nahyuck