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Dark skinned Dreams

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Just trying to find myself and my place. Just trying to find peace. People told me I should make a diary and this is it. It's all personal thoughts and feelings I hope that I'm not alone in feeling. Major trigger warning ahead.

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Self Pity is Selfish Guilt.

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by jawncuffies

by jawncuffies

                                    
                                              I told you my soul was tired and you didn't care. 
                          "What about your brothers?.. Father?.. the family?" 
                          I guess I was too naive to pick up on how you didn't mention me. 
                          I see your priorities, in the first words that left your mouth. 
                          The only way to convince me to stay is to guilt me? 
                          Looking back on the moment, I wish I never hugged you back. 
                          I pushed you away three times and said I needed space. Of course you ignored it and held me closer. I shook in your arms and could barely speak past asking you to let me go. My chest was so tight and I felt like I was fading out. 
                          But once again you didn't see my pain as a priority and let me go when you were done. 
                          Maybe that's why you ignored me. 
                          Your own guilt was eating you up. 
                          You couldn't hear my cries over your own.