Petrova Princess (1)

Becoming a mummy

Katherine
After finding out that I was pregnant so Zoellathought I'd be a very good idea for me to go see a doctor I can't really think straight right now do. I deserve this baby I've never been a very good person in my life that when I met baby Margot I knew that I could be a better person which brought me to Tom a man who loves me for who I am I know I am a mother already to Lucy I'm just scared that I'm gonna mess this baby up

As we are on way to the doctors Zoella told me that Margot and klaus were spending the day together in Monte Carlo

"I know that you are nervous and that is okay I was terrified when I was going for my scan with Margot, you can start thinking about all the stuff that can go wrong but that child growing inside of you it's a Petrova, it's fighter and if it's anything like it's mum I think that child is going to be one hell of a person "Zoella said trying to make me feel better about my anxiety being a mother

I looked at her and smiled "I know what you're saying but I still have somebody talk to my head. What if I can't be what this child needs. I don't want to mess up another child "

"Katherine you did not mess up being a mother the first time around because you didn't have chance to be a mum. that little girl was ripped away from you, you didn't even get to hold her. you can't blame yourself for the past you where a child yourself, you need to learn to forgive yourself or you're only going to make yourself sick and that is no good for the baby "

"I know I just this is the first time Ever that I've had everything I've ever wanted a man who loves me for who, I am a young girl who looks at me like I'm her mother, I have a baby growing in my stomach. I have everything and I'm just scared that something is going to come along and ruin it what do I do, I'm scared " I told Zoella my inner darkest thoughts

She started laughing at me "you think that you're alone I was terrified when I was pregnant with Margot I didn't wanna do anything in case I hurt her. in my head I thought Every possible scenario where I lost her in the end, that's where your head goes. you'll do anything to protect your child and that's why you are so worried it's not because your afraid  your gonna mess it up, it's because you wanna do the right thing for that baby.Which  shows that you're going to be an incredible mum"
she told me hearing her say it made me believe in myself a bit more I'm really excited to be a mum I just wanna make sure that I'm the greatest when I can be

As I was about to reply the doctor called my name as we walked into the room sat down and pulled up my shirt. she pulled out the wand and after putting on the cream on my stomach she gently rolled over my stomach as. I watched the monitor I couldn't believe my eyes my beautiful baby

" well everything looks incredible he or she is growing perfectly fine that doesn't seem to be any problems. for your next appointment we could find out what you're having that is if you want and of course "the doctor said but my eyes was just completely locked down my baby the black-and-white image is my child child

I turned off at Zoella "do you feel that that's love at first sight. that baby is the best thing that will ever happen to you. I speak from experience just wait until they put that little baby in your arms you'll never wanna let go "

I started laughing "I get why are you cried when we when to  Margot's first sonogram. it's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen "I said As tears drop from my eyes