SORRY, I LIED

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Kylo Rios

12-02-2018

12:03 AM

Kylo:

Ha?

Anong ibig mong sabihin?

Anong you 'lied' to me?

Catherina:

I lied to you.

I kept telling you that I was okay

But I'm actually not

And I am so so so far from being okay now :(

God, this is so ridiculous.

Kylo:

Cath... anong nangyari?

What's bothering you now?

Come on, Catherina. Please don't hesitate on telling me yours.

Catherina:

I'm sorry 😭

Sasabihin ko naman sana kaso hindi ko talaga mapigilang isipin na nagpapagaling ka pa pala diyan

Ayoko lang sanang makadagdag pa ako sa mga iniisip mo

Kylo:

Cath naman

Napag-usapan na natin 'to, diba?

Catherina:

Alam ko.

That's why I'm really sorry kasi sinubukan ko pang itago sa 'yo

Kylo:

Come on, babe.

Tell me anything.

Anything, Cath.

Catherina:

Sige.

Ky, alam mo? Wala sana ako sa mood na makipag-usap ngayon

Kahit kanino. Kahit pa sa 'yo.

Kylo:

And trust me, that's absolutely fine with me.

Catherina:

Kaso 'nung chinat mo 'ko, I couldn't just say no, you know? Parang hindi kita kayang iwanan na lang

Sobrang hindi ko talaga kaya.

Parang 'di ko kayang ipagliban ka na lang muna ngayon kasi may mga iniintindi rin akong iba

I couldn't just ignore you because I keep thinking of your condition na kaya mo ako gustong makausap kasi para kahit papano, you won't feel lonely there.

At para kahit papano, matulungan rin kita. Para may kausap ka. Para maramdaman mong hindi ka nag-iisa. I wanted to help you heal, Ky.

Kaya ayon. I still tried talking to you. I tried to act like everything's fine, but now it clearly shows how troubled I am. I can't hide it anymore.

Hindi ko na kayang itago na hindi ako okay

Kylo:

Cath, we all have priorities.

Alam kong pagdating sa 'yo, kasali na ako dun.

But it doesn't matter with me if you prioritize something else over me. I'm your boyfriend for six years but that does not entirely mean that I should be on the top of your list all the fucking time especially because of my current condition.

You can always prioritize what's more important, Cath. It's not just about me.

Kaya naman kitang intindihin lagi.

Ayos lang kapag sabihin mong ayaw mo muna akong kausapin kasi may mga iniisip ka pang iba na mas mahalaga. Maiintindihan ko naman.

Catherina:

I'm sorry

Sorry, Ky.

I'm so sorry 😭

Kylo:

Stop apologizing

Please, Cath.

Catherina:

Sorry 😭

Pagod lang kasi ako. I'm so tired.

Kylo:

Ano bang nangyari?

Catherina:

Pinuntahan ko lang si Love kanina. She really has a huge problem now kaya sinubukan ko siyang i-comfort

As her bestfriend, parang problema ko na rin ang mga problema niya kaya ako nagkakaganito. Ang hirap hirap ng sitwasyon niya ngayon and aside from me, she has no one else to comfortably open up with. That's why I can't just leave her alone

Ah, basta.

Nevermind.

That's it

I'm just tired.

Kylo:

Oh.

So it's about Lauvien pala

She'll be fine.

Anyway, do you want to rest for a while?

Catherina:

Yes.

Kylo:

I think you really need that now.

Usap na lang ulit tayo kapag nahimas-himasan ka na. This time, let me be the one to cheer you up 🙂

Goodnight.

I love you always, Catherina.