Quirks of the Soul

Relief

"Izuku, Izuku, Izuku, Izuku, Izuku..." the voice carried pure relief and guilt in spades.

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Katsuki felt pure elation crash through his entire being, as well as the proportionate surge in guilt. Izuku had never felt as solid to him as he did then. When he was unconscious, Katsuki had felt like Izuku would just slip away from his grasp in a split second.

The moment Izuku had called his name, he had quite literally never heard a voice sound so sweet and soothing to his soul. It almost felt like the angles had descended from the heavens and taken root in Izuku.

Thinking about how he could have lost Izuku had he been even the slightest bit too later or hadn't tried stem the flow of his blood loss, he felt the tears well up again.

He was so fucking relieved.

Katsuki could atone for his wrongs, as well as whatever else he had caused the lead up to this, but he wouldn't have had the chance had Izuku never regained consciousness.

Katsuki felt the tears that he had been holding back spill over without any hope of repressing it again. He had tried to hold it back, but he wasn't able to do it. Even though he still didn't think he had the right to cry, his body had a mind of its own. His voice had gained a slightly wet quality due to his emotional state.

The angle of him leaning over Izuku whilst hugging his was uncomfortable, but it didn't even register in comparison to how he had needed Izuku in his arms.

He chocked off his words, burying his face in his friend's hair. He didn't want Izuku to see him like this.

Katsuki tried to hold back a sob, and ultimately failed. He drew in a ragged breath. His cheeks were wet. Tears were dripping down into Izuku's hair. His eyes were stinging. His nose felt sour and blocked. He took solace in the fact that Izuku was in his arms. Izuku's presence soothed him.

He felt Izuku push him away before sitting up and placing gentle hands on his face. His thumb brushed away the trail of tears from his cheeks.

"D-Don't cry, Kacchan," he heard. "Of you cry, I'm going to-" Izuku broke off, tears welling up in his eyes.

Izuku broke down, partly influenced by Katsuki's emotions.

The two of them cried in each other's presence, not bothering with the fact that they were still in the hospital.

"You f-fucking idiot," cursed Katsuki. "Of all things, why did you try suicide." The tears that had been trailing off came back in full force.

Izuku let out a wet laugh, ignoring his question.

Katsuki grabbed his hand, and looked him in the eye, gripping it hard. "Don't you dare do that again, you hear me?"

When Izuku didn't respond, Katsuki felt a surge of panic and fear that Izuku wouldn't respond with an agreement.