I WON'T LOVE YOU LESS

•cez•

"Oh sorry can you hold it for a second?" I waved to him.
He smiled as I walked towards him. His eyes fixated on shawn's backpack.
For who are you here?". He healwndd against the door.
"For shawn... Shawn mendes".
"Yeah, sure every girl is here for him.
No, I'm here for him his friend drove me here". I nodded at the car.
He followed my gaze smiling at brian.
"Who are you?".
"Diamond".
"Oh wow, nice to meet your diamond I'm cez". She smiled holding the door for me to walk in.
As I walked closer to his apartment I got more nervous my mind starts to race.
What if he'll send me away?
What if he doesn't like me anymore?
What is he's discussed by me?
I breathe slowly. Walking up the starts took longer than the elevator.
My heart bested against my chest as I ring the bell.
"Hello?". Shawn raised his eyebrow confused.
"Hey, Shawn". I smiled nervously.
"Wait do I know you I know you I think somehow your voice but... It doesn't match you".
"I have to tell you something please don't hate me". I waited for a while.
I'm diamond...". I stared at him.
He blinked a few times all stunned and confused.
"Diamond... You... Is this you?".
Yeah...". I smiled.
"But how...that's why... O my God you're beautiful, you look so beautiful". He smiled, tracing his hand over my arm finding the strap of his backpack. Eyes glancing over my uniform. And the red marks on my dark skin.
"Did they do this to you?". He hosted his fingers over my bruises.
"It was horrible". My voice died off.
"...sorry...uhm wow let me just look at you for a second". He scanned every inch of me staying quiet for a while.

After a few seconds of him just begin silently he motioned me in.
When I sat down on the sofa he started talking.
"You know I think I like this diamond more than the diamond you showed me you were". He smiled.
"Really?". I looked up from my hands which I was fighting with a lot.
"Yes, but where are you aculy coming from? not Germany I suppose".
"From Curacao".
"Wow, really I've been there once it's beautiful".
I smiled.
"Well some people don't want me here and it does matter how I look". I smiled sadly.
"Well I want you here and you're beautiful". He sat down next to me, taking my hand.
"Thank you". I yawed, resting my head onto his shoulder.
"Let's sleep it's late". He rubbed my back.
"I don't wanna talk... Too tired". I yawed.
He smiled picking me up bridal style caring me to his bedroom.
When he lay me down I smiled pulling my face in his pillow.
"What happened to your clothes?". He rubbed his fingers over the fabric of my uniform.
"They took it". I listed my head from the pillow.
He looked through his closet finding a fluffy hoodie throwing it towards me.
I changed into his hoodie right after almost falling asleep.
"Are you okay?". He pulled my hair from my face.
"What?". I didn't quite catch what he said my mind slipping in and out of sleep.
"You're tired aren't you". He caressed the skin under my eyes softly.
I slowly dozed off to sleep.

I woke up snow stormed along with the window, I pulled the blankets tighter over myself rolling over to the window to see the view completely white the CN tower almost disappearing in the clouds.
The blankets were pulled off my body I turned around quickly. To see a sleepy Shawn burying his face on his blankets.
"Shawn". I rested my hand on his shoulder.
"Uhm... What?". he turned around.
"How late is it?". I rubbed my eyes.
He reached out for his phone.
"305". His eyes widen at how late it was.
"Fuck". I screamed up walking over to the living room.
"Anyway, how was your sleep?". Shawn filled a glass of water.
"Good your bed is so comfy". I smiled.
"And you?". I looked towards him.
"I slept amazing happy you finely back". He smiled hugging me.
It took me a few seconds to hug him back but when I did I completely melted in with him. He wrapped his arms around me. Pulling his face on my head.
After a few minutes, we pulled away from his face a little red.

He's cute

He smiled turning the radio up.
"yesterday a bunch of black people was asked out of camps mr lore created media thinks it's a fine line with the shooting of the boy khild summers who has shot a week ago mr lore and the people he worked with are taken by the FBI and military but who'll lead Canada isn't sure right now".
"Shawn... I don't know if I can tell you but...". I glanced at him shyly.
"What?".
"Aaliyah was one of the shooters".
He didn't respond just starting in front of him.
"That stupid Izzy". He balled his hands, he started to shake breathing heavily.
"Hey hey shawn calm down you don't wanna break your thumb". I took his hand feeling the tensing in his veins slowly opening his fingers. Starting to massage it.
I felt his eyes on me.
"Diamond". His voice sounded small.
As soon as I looked his hand was on my cheek.
"Thank you, for being here for me". He smiled eyes fixating on mine.
He leaned down towards me. I stopped away because I know he wasn't sure who he likes.
"Did I do something wrong"? He aimed at my face.
"I think you're confused". I looked up at him.
"What why would I?".
"You seemed to be in trance by Kaia, or Zara you looked completely in love with her even eden... You have a click with her you know some strings attached to her".
"Diamond".
"No, you have to submit to one person or no one".
"I'm sorry for the mixed feeling stuff".
"Then don't go on with it". I shook my head.
A silent cut our conversation.
His phone went off which he gratefully took.
"Aaliyah calm down".
"Yeah I know but I also know it's because of him".
"Okay, I'll be there". He ran his hand through his hair.

We sat down at the table. As Aaliyah explained the whole story. Shawn constantly ran his fingers through his hair I just started at Jordan's arm around her shoulder
"...And...".
"Jesus Aaliyah". Shawn took her hand.
"I'm so sorry Aaliyah". I reached out rubbing her arm.
"God I'll kill him". Shawn and Jordan's voice sounded in sync.
"No!". This we're mine and Aaliyah's voices mixed.
"Don't do that he's locked up now he's nothing will happen to her". I rested my hand on shawn's arm looking him in the eye.
"It's not only about Aaliyah what they did to you there god diamond I could barely sleep thinking about what would happen to you at the moment". He shook his head playing with the ring on his finger.
I took his hand.
He laced his fingers through mine smiling at himself. I smiled back.
Shawn tapped my shoulder pointing at Jordan and his sister kissing.
I melted at the sight.

She deserved real love

Shawn coughed shortly.
"I'm I think we'll go tell mum and dad I love them". He kissed her head. Opening the door waving me over.

I zipped up my jacket pulled my hands in my sleeves.
"Shawn!". My head shot up at the new voice.