I wonder if this time I'll make it.
I wonder if this he'll survive.
Promised myself I'll never cry ever again.
What a lie, seems like I'm bound to drown in tears forever.
Take a step back from reality, Wonder if everything was even real.
Expect the unexpected, question everything.
Tell me how exactly was I supposed to expect this.
I feel numb, my knuckles bleeding from bruises.
Tears in my eyes as I try to vent my feelings.
How long since have I found myself this deep again.
In this darkness, quivering as my body shakes.
My heart tells me to hate, but I can't not this time not again.
I did say you can't hurt me unless you break me.
Well kudos you just did that.
Crumble I did at your words and this Time my guard was down.
My walls lowered cause of trust,. Seems like again was my downfall.
I'll probably hate me for being such an idiot.
I tried to tell myself it'll be different this time.
But guess I was wrong.
Mistakes I see, mistakes I can't see.
No one is born to be perfect, not me nor you.
I'll break and castaway.
Probably will drift for a while, before I sink.
And this time I don't have any effort to rise again.
Perhaps I'll drown but I won't despair.
It's not you it's me have struck once again.
Wonder how sharp this is.
Blood red it seems.
A goodbye note I'll write.
And hope this time I'll not survive.
Shhhh there's things best left unsaid
Just smile little Hero
