Under the Same Starry Skies

Chapter 11

"Wow, nagri-review, ah? Papalapit na ang exams?" tanong ni Lucas na kakapasok sa kuwarto ko. Pinagmasdan ko siya at may hawak siyang tray na may fries at juice. "Meryenda ka muna. Masyado ka na yatang lunod d'yan sa mga binabasa mo," dagdag niya.

Bahagya akong ngumiti at nagpasalamat sa kaniya. He pat my head and went out of my room. As soon as he left, I stared at the dish he prepared. I realized that there's a lot going on on my plate that I forgot to take care of myself.

My friends would check up on me, too. They would go inside my room, hug me, send me breakfast, lunch, and dinner, even snacks. They would jokingly invite me to drink, but they would take it back and tell me that I should focus on my upcoming exams instead. Ironic how they're stopping me to drink now!

Patuloy akong nag-review nang naalala ko na naman siya. He became such a big part on my life, and I even did a lot of firsts with him. For almost two years, then what? It's all gone on the day I was supposed to be happy, the day where I was supposed to be celebrating the end of my nursing school, but it turns out that I'd be breaking up with my boyfriend on that same day.

I stopped highlighting and jumped to my bed to cry. Here I am again breaking down over my ex. Call me bitter, but I just can't get over him yet.
While crying and hugging my pillow I heard a knock on my door, so I quickly wiped my tears away and pretended that I was sleeping. I heard him enter my room and sat on my bed.

"Tama na ang pagpapanggap, Alisha Kelsie." He chuckled. I opened my eyes and sat beside him, and again I broke down. He held my back and pat it as I leaned and cried on his shoulder.

"Siya na naman?" tanong niya. Tumango ako at mas napaiyak sa tanong niya.

"Baka nagsawa ka na sa 'kin kakasabi ng pangalan niya at kakaiyak dahil sa kaniya," sabi ko. He hushed me and pat my head.

"Hindi ako magsasawang makinig sa 'yo," he assured and hugged me.

"I feel so devastated. It's as if I am messed up! I'm a mess, I can't even look at myself in the mirror! I feel so . . . I'm lost," I vented out, crying in his arms. "How could it hurt so much? What have I done wrong?"

Two years and he got tired. I was committed. I accompany himwhen he pulls an all-nighter to review. I was there to accompany him to check on their resort. He came with Isha, Kyle, and I when we went to the States to visit my family. Every night we would hug each other and I'd hear him say that he loves me more than anyone in his life, that I'm the only person he would love. We would talk about our future–what the name of our child would be, where our wedding will be held, where we'll build our house, everything.

We were so ready to conquer all of the hindrances our relationship might encounter, but I wasn't ready for this heartache–for this heartbreak.

I wiped my tears and looked at Lucas. "You were always here for me, and I feel guilty that I haven't done anything for you," I said.

"Ginusto kong maging nasa tabi mo. H'wag mong isipin 'yan. Marami ka na ring nagawa para sa 'kin. Siguro hindi mo napapansin, pero maniwala ka sa akin. Hindi mo kailangang mag-isip na wala kang nagawa para sa 'kin, okay?" aniya at ngumiti.

Napatakbo ako sa C.R. nang naramdamang nasusuka ako. Sinamahan naman ako ni Lucas para hawakan ang buhok kong nakalugay. Tinawag niya sina Fiona para pumunta rin sa amin.

"Ano'ng nangyari sa kaniya?" tarantang tanong ni Tey habang sumusuka ako.

"Nag-inom kayo sa kuwarto niya?" tanong naman ni Fiona.

"Hoy, hindi! 'Di ba, pinapag-focus natin siya sa exams niya?" sagot naman ni Lucas at inalalayan akong tumayo para magmumog at mag-toothbrush sa sink.

"Oh, eh, bakit 'yan magsusuka? 'Di mo ba kinain ang dinala naming lunch mo?" tanong ni Bella.